I dive in at the deep end You become my best friend I wanna love you but I don't know if I can Just in that coldplay mood tonight

So my pre cal final is tomorrow and well, I've studied, all day but I kind of wasted my evening..procrastination sucks big time I think i'll do ok, i have to, scholarships and all that depend on me doing well... you know it really sucks being a kid now i'm so in love now and i hate myself for getting into this, but well, we all know HIM, he came over the other night and we had fun, we were home alone and watched a movie really late and fell asleep in my room, well sure it was nice, kind of awkward, but for some reason i think we should just stay friends... ugh, i just want to have fun! anywho, i've been listening to aerosmith all evening which is nice lol i actually heard on the classic rock radio station that classic rock makes you smarter..."we don't need know education...''

well i'm talk to HIM he doesn't know he doesn't deserve mee.. i'm such a silly girl but anywho... exams start monday and i haven't cracked a book... soo sleepy!! seriously though, i've made it through highschool quite fine with my slacking!!! :) hahaha i'll cram, get an 80 make honors and get some scholarships and la lala! but i want the big scholarships, imagine if i did my work... gah i gotta tell him goodnight i gotta go to bed im skipping tomorrow to gah peacee shout out to the last journal i read, it was good, i felt..the same, about messing up and being jealous of the perfect and all that i know how you feel buddy...

well hello ! my weekend happened to be very bla once again, i fought with my dad over the 500 dollar prom dress... i facebooked the school bitch saying sorry for being a bitch and i do believe i killed her with kindness, no response yet but i'm not really waiting... i'm pumped...rugby season is starting reallly soon with running!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eee! i love to run :) hahaha gosh exams are a week away, soon i'll be entering my final semester of highschool, of the public education system i couldn't be happier!!!!!! im awaiting the party after exams, im going to get so sloshed, i need it! this creeper keeps talking to me, he found me on facebook and he claims to "like" me, he lives in another country for gosh sakes, so i just humor myself with him i'm such a bitch, it's not like all the guys are after me, but the ones that are..well i play them like a fiddle, i flirtm facebook them, msn them alll the time..i love the attention but don't like the boys, i wish i wasn't such a bad person like that..but meh! thier is this one guy though, well, he dosen't know me like he thinks he does you see...super complicated, but i know he dosen't deserve mee, he thinks i'm his sweetie, hes amazing. enough of thata foolishness now, lets get realistic here josiee! all evening i've been enjoying the sounds of oasis-(whats the story) morning glory coldplay- a rush of blood to the head and the killers-sawdust fine listeneing for mee!! i need to rediscover my love for floyd now, its been very limited lately since i've discovered oasis. but floyd, i grew up with pink floyd! thier always #1! move away, hard times don't come until tomorrow (8) beep beep i gotta go to sleep, i worked and did homework all frigging day, but i'm happy. peace love josiee

Well, yep! I'm back! oh gosh, i got my pre cal test back, 85! It's ok! so much homework but screw it...english essay can burn and i want to listen to apple bottm jeans..why, its funny :) my cat and i are currently war-ing over the computer chair, naturally i win :) i really wish it was warm ot so i could go running, but nope, my trainer at the gym is amazing but way to intense..i'll just stay at home and get fat :P aww gosh, my kitty is giving my and my music the look haha the prom dress im dying for is like 500 bucks and teh rents are moving...but i want it sooo and b/c i can't have it i want it more

anyways...so i have't journaled to you people in quite sometime...but honest to gosh i check this site out like almost every day! grade 12 year is flying by but everyday feels like such a drag...i finally did good on a pre cal test, i think, my teacher is a bitch though...a whale i hate my brother's girlfriend, she totally tries to be my friend and talk about girly things to look good for my brother but i just brush her off and ignore her. shes a whale. i love my secrets to death and it makes me happy university will be insane next year, so many plans, so many people, i know i'l have fun but for some idiot reason i chose to takke science, why? for my parents, they say they'd be happy if i decided to be a hobo as long as it was my choice and it's what i wanted...when i suggested community college my mother was like "your not going to be driving a bmw with a community college education"...show's how much she knows, just wait until i flunk out of uni, thier paying tuition :P well thiers no specail boy to go on about. so scratch that loving oasis right now, so greart! and coldplay..im really getting into the old stuff by these lovely boys