Hiiiee Everyone! But now I have to finish me little thingie mabober so listin up and pay attention their might be a quiz! Ha Ha Ha I would make a great Teacher but Then again I cant stand Teachers so Why should I even try to be one? I guess I wont try then. AND I Must have a short attention span because I just started talkin about something tottaly different than I was supposed to! Iiiieeee! I hate it when I Do that. But to get back on what Is MEANT To be my topic Today...But I cant leave without Eddie. He is what I need. He is My Drug and Im Addicted to him. And I know that sounds stupid Huh? I wonder If he ever crys at night now? I mean I do at times. Its not bad to cry at night, even if your happy with the person you love is it? But I feel that some thing is missing in my life. And its the person That actually listins to me. A person who sits down and talks to me. I mean Yeah Eddie talks to me but I mean Someone in the family. I Hate it when mom says she will talk to me but when we sit down to talk as soon as i get started she says that its all Stupid. She says she went through all of the stuff and that Its nothing. Well She aint going through it Now I am. And if I had her support I would be able to be happy alot more. Eddie thinks he dont make me smile and laugh enough. HaH! He makes me smile and Laugh to much. I miss Him so much. I talked to him on the phone for almost two Hours today it was like 1 hour and Fourty five minutes when I got off and then I was made get off the phone..I would gone longer if i hadnt been made get off. He thinks he gets to explore Wed. I got a different Idea Coming..Im gonna play the explorer instead. I mean Its my turn. I mean he got to play and Now its my turn to play..But hey I was happy with His job at playing..thats why Mine is gonna be tonz Better :)!!! lol. Hey I have rights to ya know. But he has got lotz of rights over me. all he has to say is down and I will done be unzipping his pants! lol..Im crazy I have to get it out of my system before I go to bed or i wont be able to sleep and if i Keep worried about Eddie like I Was yesterday then I wont be sleeping because I'm not crying tonight. I refuse to. I dont want to I hate crying when Basically everything is good in my life at the point of time except me not knowing what is he doing and what will happen to him. I mean last night some of the stuff he talked about to his friends Didnt sound to fun and it sounded hurtingly painful(Hey hurtingly is me new word ya'll)plus last night I woulda have killed to feel his arms around me again. I wanted to be with him so bad. But hey I have to go I got to find a different song than Cemetery Drive By MCR to listin to its startin to get old but its still A Good song Oooh Im gonna go listin to Frankie J And Baby Bash 'Obsession' the song is me fave! No Es Amor...LoL Well Later Ya'll..I Love Yew Eddie!~Amie Renea Brumley~

If the ground wasnt so dirty i would kiss it but yeah you get the picture im glad to be home after being stuck in monticello for a week. Dude I got abused last night...Josh Hardwick(A Friend of mine) abused me..lol...So now i have a big bruise on my butt and a welt on my leg from a freakin tennis racket. but hey i will write more later....but guess what.....Im not sayin anything about what me and eddie do anymore....So bi bi luvviez~Amie~

I Now Officially believe That I live In Hell. I dont have to go to Monticello until monday because mom and dad leave tuesday but anna still wants us down there sunday so she can get her money and Me to clean for her. And today is a month for me and Eddie. I Hope he can come by after church. Last night was so boring. I sat in the van half the time just listining to music and lookin out the window. I mean there was two hot guys there but hey Im taken but mom always says just because your on a diet dont mean you cant look at the menue...In other words just because your taken dont mean you can look at other guys. But hey I havta get off I'll write more later. Luvviez~Amie~

Mom says we might be going to the auction. I dont know if I will go. I might but Then again if Steven And Them Is There..Im Locking Myself In The van again. Steven gets on my nerves really bad. He talks about people he dont even know..Some of them are my friends. and Then he says he can whip them. Its like yeah right.. I wanna see you try. I dont have to go to Monticello until Sunday afternoon around 3 or 4. Fine With me. I still dont want to go anyways. Its not fair..lol...Who said this world was fair. Mainly who said my family was fair. But hey its the Holloway Bunch and I Am Holloway Blood even though My last name is Carrender Im Full Of Holloway blood. And Im Proud Of It. But I still enjoy being a Carrender. Though Its only my adoption name. But then I wont have to deal with either of those two names in a year or two if possible because me and Eddie will be getting married! Then mom wont have to put up with me as much..I will be happier than I am now...And My life will be just sooo much better..And Eddie is reading this I know...He always reads my journal...hey baby now is the time where you give me the password to that one journal you have somewhere....Because I wanna read it! And If I have to I will beg....See what he does he makes me beg. But If I have to beg for something then so will you. lol.....No one is on right now they are all asleep in bed..More than Likely...Ha and Im the one called Lazy. And Eddie is still using the Bite me Comment..I wonder if he knows how old that is..I mean its older than My aunt. and she is ReALLLY Old....lol....You think If I tie myself to the bed I wont be made go to Monticello? Im gonna try every way possible to get out of going down there. They will end up having to drag me down there though..I done know. Im not that much of a dumbass. Well hey Im gonna get off I think I might go mess with Eddie's messenger...Later. Luvviez~Amie~

Ummm Lets See...Today was april fools day but I never got pranked. Not once. And that was just weird..But hey Im not complaining. Im so thankful for it. Its like Thank the Holy lord! lol But today was good. Besidez a friend on the bus kept askin me if I had done this or If we had done that..It told him no, not yet(Hey there is A YET on there) And I Know Eddie will see this because he only gets on here to see my journal. well I will write more later maybe. Bye Luvviez~Amie~

Hey guys..Its four Weeks for me and Eddie. And sunday will be a month. Im so glad we have made it this far. He found out the end of the sentence..well actually he got it out of me*What an weird way to put that on this subject* and so I told him. But hey At least its not buggin me anymore. Im glad he knows now. He actually knows my true feelings I guess. Seems that his dad has blocked my number. Probably from where Me and Carol Called him so much tuesday when he was grounded..lol..he is tryin to figuire out a way to hear my voice now..So Im guessing he is tryin to get through to me or find away i could get through to him. Im listining to Atreyu-Right side of the bed...Great Song... I seem to be known as Mrs. Brumley Now.. Which is fine with me. I happen to like it. He is wantin to send me a pic of him but He aint got a pic of him on the computer I guess. Well Im Gonna Go I havent been writing much in these last couple Entries...Maybe I will make up for it some other time..I Dont know. Well Later Luvviez~Amie~

well we didnt relive much in the backseat..becasue carol had to come to church with us but oh well..but we did makeout right behind moms back and she never knew..lol...And I dont think she will know..And AMEN that boy can kiss....I had to get that out..But last night was great...We snuggled most the way home..which i dont really care if we didnt kiss alot then because I love snuggling. Hey I did a really short entry yesterday didnt I? Oh well...Who cares. Eddie still hasnt figured out the answer to our little guessing game. And it seems were married at school now...some people have taken up to callin us mr. and mrs. pda..hmmm I wonder why X) But hey I dont really care what they say...He will always be everything to me. The house is so quiet..But thank god that pup is alseep..I swear that thing has to be possessed by a Demon or is just plain Evil and wants to Eat me. But hey I havta go..I just got on to tell ya this because I told ya I would give ya details. Bi Bi People Luvviez~Amie~

Hey people so wats up..Im just sitting here typing..like last time. I just got in from sitting outside and gettin some sun..in about 30 min I have to get ready for church.I wanna look good for my man..And maybe a relived scene in the back of the car...Hopefully....Give ya details later okiedok...OMG Carol is outside trying to dance...how..er..how weird lookin it looks...Not a good sight to my purtty blue eyes... X) She shall beg for gods forgiveness....well i gotta go and get ready for church I Gotsta try and look half way good at least..X) Ha Ha I could kill myself from laughing so much..well Luvviez~Amie~

Ha. Thats all I have to say to school today. Ha Like I Want to remember all that bull shit and cram knowledge like that into my head. Dude Im not even smart..Im Barely passing...Soo Look how its gonna be if I actually made it to highschool. And Eddie says he is gonna hold himself back. If he does Then Im gonna be in highschool alone pratically. Maybe a couple of friends. If he does do that then Im gonna be sooo alone. Then maybe i will go gothic or something. I like the color black hell look at my nails*Not that you can*They are black too. Tomorrow I Get to go to church with Eddie YaY. Plus i get to see him at school tomorrow.I keep gettin the god damn answering Machene..I didnt even know they had one too! But hey that just go's to show that i dont know everything..but i coulda told ya that myself. Im dumb...I could be a bombshell blonde and blow you away with my dumbness..Atreyu is on..Some ones Sitting On My Chest..I Want to get their song Lip Gloss and Black but I like their album The Curse more than Suicide notes and Butterfly Kisses..But hey its me As In Amie. I Miss eddie..but hey I will end up boring ya over talkin about him..but hey I have no idea whats happened to him..I wonder did his dad kill him this time? lol i dont think he would..Dude I have to go to Monticello this spring break(Next week) just so mom can see some old woman before she dies..yeah I know its an old women have some sympathy but hey now i get stuck down there and I cant get out of it and stay here at home. But oh well anna and evertte are pretty cool with me. They let me run around by myself and let me hang out with my friends down there so I think I'll have a good time as long as Josh dont bother me. Dude he is cute but I love Eddie more than ever and Im not gonna break up with him over some sex crazed 16 year old boy in monticello that i would never see and more than likely him screw around with other girls..So I perfer Eddie mainly because I Truly do Love him and He would never cheat on me..Or at least thats what he said I will believe every word he tells me. I was looken and Eddie's space this morning on msn and he had made a new entry about the little game that Im playin with him..It seems to drive him crazy..I wonder if I should tell him or just keep giving him hints.I mean sometime or later Its gonna have to come out*Oooh such a strange way to put that :) * lol me and my Amiemoments lol...I laugh to much but most the time when i say lol its because I cant think of anything better to say and/or I'm to shy to say it..Yeah Im shy...But yet I go around yelling at people in cars up town..kiss Eddie in school(My fave)..Run around with kristy, ashley, whitney, and tonz of others, and play spin the bottle Or truth or dare when Im Single only..Most the time when we play truth or dare I get to be done first and I Choose dare(I never back down on a dare unless its life threatining) and End up kissing, grabing, Ect. with some guy that ive known for a while or I just met. But hey Its okay to be shy.Right? And plus I Only play those games when Im single because I hate cheatin people and I dont want to be one of those cheatin people because I hate myself enough for All the shit I go through from tellin people stuff. Hell Im just gonna stop telling people everything..I will only tell eddie. I trust him much more than anyone around me anymore. He is my only thought. Well I fear i have typed to much so I think i might stop before i get tracked down and an angry mob come at me for typing way to much. Luvviez~Amie~

Mom dont care what anyone thinks...She dont even care how Her teenage duaghter feels. Alls he cares about is herself and Anna and Everyone Else besides Me. So Amie must not be important..Amie must be nothing to this whole world. Amie needs some help before she goes nuts...And she misses Eddie so much..He never called her yesterday and she was worried about what happened...I hope he dont get into much trouble this time when he comes back..Hey this is somthing like a pattern..two weeks ago on a tuesday he was outta school for suspension and he is outta school two weeks later for suspension...Lets hope this aint a pattern he keeps up because I dont like it but hey I cant control him and I dont look to..But I do want to stop him from gettin into so much trouble. He means everything to me and he is the only god damn reason I go to school anymore..Plus he is like my shadow..where you find me you find him..and its lonely when I dont have my shadow behind me keeping me safe. He wrote two poems for me and they were so sweet. He Means so much to me..Mom just refuses to beleive it..but then I refuse to listin to what she says all the time..I mean if she wants to be hard Headed So Can I Be...But hey I'm gonna stop writing now I might write later on..Cya'll and Eddie if your Reading this- I love you so much and I never Ever wanna lose you and I guess I will see you Wed. Call me then if you can. I LOVE YOU! Bye People Luvviez~Amie~