Let's close off another gate. lets not trust anyone im scared that what i think will drive people away and i dont tell the whole story and i want to talk more; i never get to talk about myself to others and whatever i say it makes people go away am i doomed to repel?

I hate it when people flaunt about their relationships. I feel like they're making fun of me. That they are proving they are better. That they have actually found someone that likes them. And Im here. alone and weak. i know im socially inept. i hate myself. stop making me feel less worthy. i know im hated. i dont need it shoved in my face. i wish i could talk to someone. all the gay guys here all the guys here all the girls everyone they;ve been liked i just wish i could know what they feel when someoen likes them it must feel great how much more do i have to wait?

yes i do wonder why people dont like me i know its arrogant but im smart im funny sometimes im caring im kind i can stand up for whats right i hate being introverted ---- "DANNY he just looks like someone you would be perfect with." maybe i dont interact withpeople because i dont think they're good enough. joe is pretty dumb & i hate his msuic crap no one will ever be with me

oh taht guy's cute ..yea he's goodlooking so go ask him out i cant...he wouldnt like me yea he would why wouldnt anyone want you because... just because god youre such a fucking loser i know just go over there and say fucking hi i cant i just cant

Why must gay guys insist on being fags? Is there not one that isn't filled with the same moronic shit as the others? they are all the fucking same. i fucking hate fags and their fag shit. i know not all of them can be like this.... why must they insist on being such fucking posers.

Confusion arises where it shouldn't. jose is not gay. no no no no. So I'm going to write today's story. Jose kept reitenirating the not gay college part. again and again. yea, k i get it, you want me to go away and etc. Then Kara leaves, and he looks like he wants to, but as long as im there he stayed. kwtf. why, this semester, is he being all...sitting next to me. i know you hate fags, and i know you know i am. so leave me the fuck alone. i hate him, i hate this situation. even if he was gay, i wisshh, hes an idiote. he wouldnt like me..im not his type. i hate myself for thinking such things.

I know I'm making a big deal out of this. aaah Jose. I feel guilty. He gave me an8, and I gave him a 5. He did stuff furr me. Eh. I still don't like his poseurism, but his niceness makes him hottt...oooh and his occasional instances of solitude. aaah. stupid wannabe.

I don't know. Is it expected of me to be extroverted sometimes? I can't talk to people. It's just who I am. no one gets that. or they are ignorant of it. I would love to be able to talk smoothly. I would love to go up to people and be able to talk to them and make friends and maybe go out with someone. but I can't. It's not in me. I don't think I'm arrogant or better, to the contrary, I don't think I'm good enough for the people around me. I wish someone knew how I acted. That understood me, but some people do know me too well, and I guess this I fear. Maybe I just want to be discreet about myself and what I think. But why do I also want someone to know? It makes no sense.

Yea, k, it's stupid to be stereotypical. I HATE Jose. Fucking idiot. oh yea, im mexican, let's play soccur and be all ghetooo. yea, gay. It's so obvious some of them aren't like that, but they do it to fit in. Conformity

i dont want to make fun of anyone ever again. i dont want to hurt anyone ever. i wish people would stop being so horrible to their own peer.s