Of course, that said, if SM had a physical manifestation and I sawed off its fingertips, I would probably be charged with assault, cruel and unusual punishment, and possibly manslaughter. Everything counts for a manslaughter charge these days.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU, SM. For a solid month you tell me my password is wrong, then just like that, you're working again. Screw you too >=[. If you had a physical manifestation I would saw off your fingertips and force feed them to you. Work next time I want to sign in, okay? Please? I'll feed you pretty lyrics that no one will ever comment on. It'll be amazing.

I locked myself out of my account. o_O Had to email Mike to log back in. I wonder what life's like when you're not a total dumbass?

Sometimes I delete journal entries simply because I feel that they misrepresent my general intent... While it sounded good at the time, something gets lost in the translation of vague emotion to solid definition.

I miss being a metal elitist. Is that pathetic? =/ LaDiablo | 03-17-2007 @ 01:07 AM EDT I still feel like this T_T.

Down make me happy. Pantera minus the brilliant guitar-work? *Dimebag tribute moment*

Gahh. I like the idea of being in a relationship. I adore the concept of falling in love. ...but I don't want a relationship with anyone beside one person. Someone I know I can never have. Too much distance. It's nearly impossible. I try telling myself it's alright, that I have to move on, look for someone else, someone I might possibly have a chance with. It sounds logical, right? Keep moving. Try to forget. Find something that isn't impossible. But it feels so pointless. It almost feels like cheating. It definitely feels like I'm leading people on. Sorry, David. I have to bail on you. You'd make an awesome friend, but it won't be going any further than this. ((I told you I get like this... this social phobia... Sorry to be so distant. I trust you, as much as you can trust someone you've only known two days... But I don't trust myself. I get paranoid, so incredibly self conscious. Sometimes I can't block it out. I don't mean to seem rude =[.))

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v113/ScotchClock/posterity.jpg Nerrrrrd.

I blog where I know people won't be watching, too. =]

I suppose I'm just a weak person. Weak, weak, weak.