• so for the few, im sure, of you who are reading this, if any, i just want to say thank you for listening to me, even if you stop here, thank you for your time. my name is taylor. i love music, friends, boys, shopping, dance, computer, MUSIC, being alone, and attention. hate to say it but i love attention. i don't really know what im supposed to do with this journal, but i'm taking it as an opportunity to express myself, seeing as i don't get many chances to do this elsewhere. i believe that people don't see me as who i see myself as. i think people see me as a smart, put together, conservative, quiet, loving, nice girl. how i see myself is full of deep emotions that no one would understand. i truly believe that no one would understand who i really am if they got inside my head. i use music as my escape from anything and everything. when i don't want to deal with my family,boys, love, friends, stress, anything at all, i turn to music. i love dancing around to it, lip syncing it, singing and recording myself. i love it all. music is so diverse and so personal, everyone has their own taste in it. you know that the music isnt loud enough if you can still hear your own thoughts. my line to live by i live life in a pretend fantasy world where everything is perfect and my life makes sense. in reality nothing makes sense and nothings perfect for me. im still waiting for my break where everything will just feel right just for once if only for one moment. im hanging onto this dream and never letting go, even though its getting harder and harder. i can't explain what "right" would feel like to me, i really can't. i don't know, maybe when i find true love? i really can't define it for you, not even for myself that's the crazy thing about life, the simple things you want are easy to list off, but the things you want most, you can't even explain to yourself. i dont get it sometimes and there are moments when i can't deal being in my own skin. but i get by with music so basically i poured a little bit of my heart out for you in one journal entry...sorry it was soooo long but ive never said any of this out loud before and it's really hard for me to sit in silence for so long about things i feel so deeply emotional about. i just want to thank you all for reading this and there will be more to come for sure. please continue reading on, i promise my life is anything but boring ;) with love, taylor kay song today would be; Newport Living by Cute Is What We Aim For

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