This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Please tell me what is taking place
'Cause I can't seem to find a trace
Guess it must have got erased somehow
Probably 'cause I always forget
Every time someone tells me their name
It's always gotta be the same
(In my World)
Never wore cover-up
Always beat the boys up
Grew up in a 5000 population town
Made my money by cutting grass
Got fired by fried chicken ass
All in a small town, Napanee
You know I always stay up without sleepin'
And think to myself
Where do I belong forever
In whose arms, the time and place?
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
I never spend less than an hour
Washin' my hair in the shower
It always takes 5 hours to make it straight
So I'll braid it in a zillion braids
Though it may take all friggen day
There's nothin' else better to do anyway
When you're all alone in the lands of forever
Lay under the milky way
On and on it's getting too late out
I'm not in love this time this night
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
Take some time
Mellow out
Party up
But don't fall down
Don't get caught
Sneak out of the house
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
'Cause I can't seem to find a trace
Guess it must have got erased somehow
Probably 'cause I always forget
Every time someone tells me their name
It's always gotta be the same
(In my World)
Never wore cover-up
Always beat the boys up
Grew up in a 5000 population town
Made my money by cutting grass
Got fired by fried chicken ass
All in a small town, Napanee
You know I always stay up without sleepin'
And think to myself
Where do I belong forever
In whose arms, the time and place?
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
I never spend less than an hour
Washin' my hair in the shower
It always takes 5 hours to make it straight
So I'll braid it in a zillion braids
Though it may take all friggen day
There's nothin' else better to do anyway
When you're all alone in the lands of forever
Lay under the milky way
On and on it's getting too late out
I'm not in love this time this night
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
Take some time
Mellow out
Party up
But don't fall down
Don't get caught
Sneak out of the house
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
Can't help if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
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I grew up not that far from Napanee... and like everything that goes on in my pretty lil town, theres so many things that ppl know about her and its so easy to run into someone that personally knew her. I like this song tho bcuz its from our small towns in Ontario. Take her seriously tho when she says Dont get caught sneak outta the house. lol