I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Subconscious strange sensation
Unconscious relaxation
What a pleasant nightmare
And I can't wait to get there again
Every time I close my eyes
There's another vivid surprise
Another whole life waiting
Chapters unfinished, fading
Closer now,
Slowly coming into view
I've arrived,
Blinding sunshine beaming through
There's a house I'm drawn into
Familiar settings, nothing new
There's a pathway leading there
With a haunting chill in the air
There's room at the top of the stairs
Every night I'm drawn up there
There's a girl in the mirror
Her face is getting clearer
Young child won't you tell me why I'm here?
In her eyes
I sense a story never told
Behinde the disguise
There's something tearing
At her soul
Tonight I've been searching for it
A feeling that's deep inside m
Tonight I've been searching for
The one that nobody knows
Trying to break free
I just can't help myself
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head
Tears my heart into two
I'm not the one the sleeper thought he knew
Back on my feet again
Eyes open to real world
Metropolis surrounds me
The mirror's shattered the girl
Why is this other life
Haunting me everyday
I'd break through the other side
If only I'd find the way
Something's awfully familiar
The feeling's so hard to shake
Could I have lived in that other world
It's a link that I'm destined to make
I'm still searching but I don't know what for
The missing key to unlock my mind's door
Today I am searching for it
A feeling that won't go away
Today I am searching for it
The only one I know
Trying to break free
I just can't help myself
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head
Tears my soul into two
I'm not the one I thought I always knew
I just can't help myself
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head
Uncanny, strange Deja Vu
But I don't mind
I hope to find the truth
Unconscious relaxation
What a pleasant nightmare
And I can't wait to get there again
Every time I close my eyes
There's another vivid surprise
Another whole life waiting
Chapters unfinished, fading
Closer now,
Slowly coming into view
I've arrived,
Blinding sunshine beaming through
There's a house I'm drawn into
Familiar settings, nothing new
There's a pathway leading there
With a haunting chill in the air
There's room at the top of the stairs
Every night I'm drawn up there
There's a girl in the mirror
Her face is getting clearer
Young child won't you tell me why I'm here?
In her eyes
I sense a story never told
Behinde the disguise
There's something tearing
At her soul
Tonight I've been searching for it
A feeling that's deep inside m
Tonight I've been searching for
The one that nobody knows
Trying to break free
I just can't help myself
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head
Tears my heart into two
I'm not the one the sleeper thought he knew
Back on my feet again
Eyes open to real world
Metropolis surrounds me
The mirror's shattered the girl
Why is this other life
Haunting me everyday
I'd break through the other side
If only I'd find the way
Something's awfully familiar
The feeling's so hard to shake
Could I have lived in that other world
It's a link that I'm destined to make
I'm still searching but I don't know what for
The missing key to unlock my mind's door
Today I am searching for it
A feeling that won't go away
Today I am searching for it
The only one I know
Trying to break free
I just can't help myself
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head
Tears my soul into two
I'm not the one I thought I always knew
I just can't help myself
I'm feeling like I'm going out of my head
Uncanny, strange Deja Vu
But I don't mind
I hope to find the truth
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