"Siva" as written by and William Patrick Corgan....
I spin off and lose my head
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel

Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what your after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I inhale

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"

All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what your after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live - I inhale
I don't live


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"Siva" as written by William Patrick Corgan

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  • +2
    My InterpretationBilly's described Gish as a very spiritual album and I think this song is one of the reasons why

    'I don't live - I inhale'
    A lot of spiritual practices involves focusing on the intake of breath because that is what keeps us alive, so 'living' and 'inhaling' are the same in that respect, but spiritual practices tend to take the 'inhaling' perspective so I think that's what Billy meant by that

    'I don't give - I unveil'
    Spirituality involves tearing away the illusions and the layers of your ego to uncover the 'true self' which is a philosophy originating in India and referred to in Hinduism, Yoga etc. so there's a connection with the song title

    The rest of the lyrics do seem to refer to a break-up or some sort of relationship problems which again is reflected in the title with 'shiva' referring to the tantric concepts of opposing masculine and feminine forces, so I believe that Billy's referring to meditation (or tripping!) to escape these problems or remedy the emotional distress caused by the relationship
    acphenomon June 11, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Commenti have no idea what this song means but i like it
    Jabbatronon May 23, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentEasily their best song.
    Caisentijeraon June 28, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General Commentawesome song, he really lets it out in this one.
    uselessdragon July 06, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General CommentDefinitely about seriously hurting inside-

    "Way down deep within my heart
    Lies a soul that's torn apart "

    And-

    "All this pain smothers me
    Like a bomb that you can't see"

    Really a gorgeous song...I can relate so easily to that feeling of trying to express just how painful it is inside, and being really not able to clearly...just lovely.
    crimsoncrushedroseon December 04, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI found this at merriamwebster.com... siva: the god of destruction and regeneration in the Hindu sacred triad. So I guess you can spell it like that.
    JewellyBugon December 08, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General CommentIm not sure whether the name has anything to do with the lyrics, cause Corgan is known for giving songs very random names... but it was going to be the name of the band until Corgan decided that Smashing Pumpkins was better, so it obviously means something to Billy
    *Steve-O*on December 27, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General CommentTo me, it sounds like this song was written from the 1st person view AS Siva. Siva, being the god of destruction and rebirth, is in total chaos at all times. It seems as though Billy feels that he has become chaotic through the actions of someone who betrayed him and he's striking back, not for revenge, but more so for his own rebirth or enlightenment.
    ilikeathfon February 19, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentWell sometimes Billy misspells stuff on purpose
    Examples: Mellon Collie,Mayonaise...eh i dunno there might be more
    cupid de lockeon April 10, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentBilly didn't mispell mayonaise, james did, he wrote it. Siva would of been an awesome band name, I'm going to call my band that, but it'll be pronounced See-Va.
    ZEROpumpkinson July 20, 2005   Link

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