The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
I spin off and lose my head
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel
Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster
I don't live, I inhale
I don't give, I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live, I inhale
Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"
All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster
You
I don't live, I inhale
I don't give, I unveil
I don't live, I inhale
I don't live
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel
Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster
I don't live, I inhale
I don't give, I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live, I inhale
Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"
All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster
You
I don't live, I inhale
I don't give, I unveil
I don't live, I inhale
I don't live
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To me, it sounds like this song was written from the 1st person view AS Siva. Siva, being the god of destruction and rebirth, is in total chaos at all times. It seems as though Billy feels that he has become chaotic through the actions of someone who betrayed him and he's striking back, not for revenge, but more so for his own rebirth or enlightenment.
Billy's described Gish as a very spiritual album and I think this song is one of the reasons why
'I don't live - I inhale' A lot of spiritual practices involves focusing on the intake of breath because that is what keeps us alive, so 'living' and 'inhaling' are the same in that respect, but spiritual practices tend to take the 'inhaling' perspective so I think that's what Billy meant by that
'I don't give - I unveil' Spirituality involves tearing away the illusions and the layers of your ego to uncover the 'true self' which is a philosophy originating in India and referred to in Hinduism, Yoga etc. so there's a connection with the song title
The rest of the lyrics do seem to refer to a break-up or some sort of relationship problems which again is reflected in the title with 'shiva' referring to the tantric concepts of opposing masculine and feminine forces, so I believe that Billy's referring to meditation (or tripping!) to escape these problems or remedy the emotional distress caused by the relationship
awesome song, he really lets it out in this one.
I found this at merriamwebster.com... siva: the god of destruction and regeneration in the Hindu sacred triad. So I guess you can spell it like that.
It's about depression and heartache
i have no idea what this song means but i like it
This song is most probably based on the story of Hindu mythology about ""Siva's"" havoc,rage,his creative and destructive ability,<br /> which all the the gods were unable to:<br /> face,contain or fight, which he unvieled on the world, his unstoppable righteous anger, when a pure person,<br /> His worshipper and lover named "sati" who he was going to marry, died by jumping in fire of a ceremony established by her father, because of the shame which her father threw on her by <br /> disregarding Shiva (SIVA) as an acceptable groom for sati for his "Wicked Way of Lifestyle".<br /> <br /> When Siva (or Shiva) came to know that SATI had died by jumping in a prayer fire, ceremonied by her father the following incidents happened in which Many mighty gods were BULLIED by siva's rage:<br /> <br /> (taken from wikipedia:Virabhadra)(siva's angry avatar)(angry avatars of shiva are called "rudras" and their are 11 of them)<br /> <br /> Shiva came to know about this and with deep sorrow and anger, plucked a lock of hair and thrashed on the ground. Lord Veerabhadra,<br /> and Rudrakali was born. Virabhadra's believed to be the """Destroyer of Ajnana (ignorance or absence of knowledge)""", his tall body reached the high heavens,<br /> he was dark as the clouds, three burning eyes, and fiery hair; he wore a garland of skulls and carried terrible weapons.<br /> <br /> Siva also orders Veerabhadra not to fear the Brahmans(holy men) as Virabhadra was part of his very self.<br /> <br /> Lyrics interpretation:<br /> <br /> I spin off and lose my head <br /> Throwing stray a spark instead <br /> Gather strength down in my heel <br /> And dig it in the world I peel <br /> ..................<br /> ;;;;>shiva digging his lock of hair in the earth with deep sorrow and anger (probably caved in the earth with his heel)<br /> ..................<br /> Way down deep within my heart <br /> Lies a soul that's torn apart <br /> ..........................................<br /> ;;;;;>sorrow for sati's self mortification as she was a pure soul and his doubtless lover<br /> ..........................................<br /> Tell me, tell me what you're after <br /> I just want to get there faster <br /> .........................................<br /> ;;;;;>siva questioning daksha (sati's father) in his angry mind for his humanly greed which shiva can't understand and don't want to as he is innocent and angry angry<br /> .........................................<br /> I don't live - I inhale <br /> I don't give - I unveil <br /> Don't want to live in your misery <br /> I don't live - I inhale <br /> .........................................<br /> ;;;;;;>shiva telling the truth about himself: that he is an angry meditator (inhaling-breathing fast) because of daksha,<br /> and now he will unveil this truth for the earth and gods to see<br /> .........................................<br /> Sprinkle all my kisses on your head <br /> Stars full of wishes fill our beds <br /> She said, "I'm dead" <br /> ........................................<br /> ;;;;;>siva thinking about sati and how they would have wed but now she is dead<br /> ........................................<br /> All this pain smothers me <br /> Like a bomb that you can't see <br /> Tell me, tell me what you're after <br /> I just want to get there faster <br /> .........................................<br /> ;;;;;;>the pain smother and disturbs siva's breathing.....despite of this he cant't forget his breathing meditation and be like a bomb with all this pain,<br /> and so be it for all the gods and realms to see and so they will have to face his unstoppable wrath<br /> ........................................<br /> ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;<br /> During the spoiling and destruction of Daksha's ceremony gods were bullied by Siva, rudrakali(Avatar of shiva) and the Veerabhadra and Virabhadra(avatar of shiva) cuts off Daksha's (sati's father) head;;<br /> ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;<br /> ................................:::;----lllll<br /> COMPROMISE WITH SHIVA (taken from wiki)<br /> <br /> After the destruction of Daksha's sacrifice, the defeated gods sought Brahma and asked his counsel.<br /> Brahma advised the gods to make their peace with Shiva.<br /> Brahma himself went with them to Mount Kailash. Brahma prayed to lord Shiva to pardon Daksha and to mend the broken limbs of gods and rishis.<br /> The compassionate lord (Shiva) took pity on Daksha and restored the burnt head of Daksha with that of a goat's head (now he is a great devotee of siva)......<br /> <br /> ....................................::::::----lllll<br /> <br /> siva is called by many names one of which is "bhola" meaning the innocent one, despite of his mightiest destructive power,<br /> as he is eternally righteous and an avenger of his worshippers, and so the wrong doers can never escape his wrath even if they run from him for eternity he will chase them and put them to justice of dharma<br /> <br /> he is one of the mightiest hindu gods of the hindu holy trinity among Brahma and Vishnu.<br /> Brahma is all knowing and kind hearted.......<br /> vishnu is protecter of the universe and one of his angry-cruel avatar is "Narsimha"(story of narsimha is really epic 2-that's why i guess pumpkins also like siva) who is the protector of his innocent worshippers,<br /> and shiva is the powerful destructive force and these three are eternal friends<br /> <br /> i am a pumpkins fan and from india, so it gives me a great pleasure to enlighten my friends with this, thats why i wrote so much to make it clear<br /> and ofcourse this is just my opinion and iterpretation ;),,,<br /> will be watching game of thrones later goodbye :)<br /> <br />
Easily their best song.
Siva is another spelling of Shiva which is the seven day mourning period observed by the Jewish when a close family member dies. I think the song is about a guy losing his temper and starting a fight with his girlfriend or wife and he's feeling bad about it so "I don't live - I inhale" (marijuana). It seems like he thinks she's using his guilt to get something so he just wants to know what she's after so he can get the whole situation over with faster, but he also lets her know that he won't be used - "I don't give - I unveil."
Definitely about seriously hurting inside-
"Way down deep within my heart Lies a soul that's torn apart "
And-
"All this pain smothers me Like a bomb that you can't see"
Really a gorgeous song...I can relate so easily to that feeling of trying to express just how painful it is inside, and being really not able to clearly...just lovely.
Im not sure whether the name has anything to do with the lyrics, cause Corgan is known for giving songs very random names... but it was going to be the name of the band until Corgan decided that Smashing Pumpkins was better, so it obviously means something to Billy