This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
If I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to
If I am hardened, no fear of further abandonment and
If I am famous then maybe I'll feel good in this skin
If I am cultured, my words will somehow garner respect and
I would throw a party, still
It would not come
I would bike, run, swim and still
It would not come
I'd go traveling and still
It would not come
I would starve myself and still
It would not come
If I am masculine I will be taken more seriously
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
If I'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
I'd be filthy rich and still
It would not some
I would seduce them and still
It would not come
I would drink vodka and still
It would not come
I'd have an orgasm and still
It wouldn't come
If I accumulate knowledge
I'll be impenetrable
If I am aloof, no one will know
When they strike a nerve
If I keep my mouth shut the boat
Will not have to be rocked
If I am vulnerable I will be
Trampled upon
I would go shopping and still
It would not come
I'd leave the country and still
It would not come
I would scream and rebel and still
It would not come
I would stuff my face and still
It would not come
I'd be productive and still it would not come
I'd be celebrated still it would not come
I'd be the hero and still it would not come
I'd renunciate and still it would not come
If I am hardened, no fear of further abandonment and
If I am famous then maybe I'll feel good in this skin
If I am cultured, my words will somehow garner respect and
I would throw a party, still
It would not come
I would bike, run, swim and still
It would not come
I'd go traveling and still
It would not come
I would starve myself and still
It would not come
If I am masculine I will be taken more seriously
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
If I'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
I'd be filthy rich and still
It would not some
I would seduce them and still
It would not come
I would drink vodka and still
It would not come
I'd have an orgasm and still
It wouldn't come
If I accumulate knowledge
I'll be impenetrable
If I am aloof, no one will know
When they strike a nerve
If I keep my mouth shut the boat
Will not have to be rocked
If I am vulnerable I will be
Trampled upon
I would go shopping and still
It would not come
I'd leave the country and still
It would not come
I would scream and rebel and still
It would not come
I would stuff my face and still
It would not come
I'd be productive and still it would not come
I'd be celebrated still it would not come
I'd be the hero and still it would not come
I'd renunciate and still it would not come
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