"Heavy (feat. Kiiara)" as written by and Justin Tranter Julia Michaels....
I don't like my mind right now
Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Yeah, I drive myself crazy
'Cause I can't escape the gravity

I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?

(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)

You say that I'm paranoid
But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me
It's not like I made the choice
To let my mind stay so fucking messy
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same

I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?

(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)
(Holding, holding)

Holding on (Holding, holding)
Holding on (Holding, holding)

I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me

Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Why is everything so heavy?


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"Heavy" as written by Chester Bennington Brad Delson

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    My InterpretationI think this song can be interpreted many ways, but the way I see it is that there's two sides of the song; Kiiara's side and Chester's side (the song's characters). Both could be dealing with mental health issues, and both seem to be at war with themselves.

    Kiiara's character could possibly suffer from schizophrenia or intense paranoia or even severe anxiety. She portrays the less physical - but still as serious - side of mental health issues.

    Chester's character seems to have anger issues, or something known as intermittent explosive disorder (IED). In the video, his character is shown to lash out and be physically violent, even if he's alone. He is seen screaming at himself and breaking glass over the table before leaving the house casually.

    When he goes to the meeting where Kiiara is, he causes a fight with another participant and ends up storming out of the room to the men's room to calm down. When Kiiara sees this, she seems very calm or at least indifferent, unlike the rest of the group.

    Then we see Chester, screaming (singing) at himself in the mirror. The words he says here are: "I drive myself crazy, thinking everything's about me." This could be expressing how he doesn't know why he is the way he is, and he overthinks it to the point of going 'crazy'. This happens shortly before we see him metaphorically attack himself.

    Kiiara then quietly follows him to the bathroom, finds him sitting in a mess of broken mirror glass and clutching his head, and sits down next to him. Though before she enters, she hesitates and seems nervous; when she covers her face (which could be an example of overthinking and anxiousness.)

    The video ends with Kiiara lightly touching Chester's arm, as if she's finally found someone that understands what it's like to be constantly 'at war' with yourself.

    I think the entire title the chorus can be deciphered into the main theme.
    "Why is everything so heavy?" - this could be people dealing with mental illnesses asking themselves "why does it have to be this way?" or "why does everything have to be so hard?"
    berryteaon March 20, 2017   Link

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