I've never been alone
Long enough to know
If I ever was a child

I was tied up like a boat
On a button like a coat
Set free for the wild
I'd jump to jolt my clumsy blood
While my white, green eyes
Cry like a windowpane
Can my cold heart change
Even out of spite?

I saw
Behind my brain
A haunted stain
It never fades
I hunt
For the kind of pain
I can take

And I cry like a windowpane
Can my cold heart change
Overnight?
So I won't ever want to touch
Your heart too much
Or hold you too tight

I saw
Behind my brain
A haunted stain
It never fades
I hunt
For the kind of pain
I can take

I never was alone
Long enough to know
If I ever was a child


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    A confessional song about somebody who has some kind of deep pain and trauma, probably from his childhood, unhealed and buried in his psyche somewhere. He knows it's there and he knows it makes him emotionally cold and unable to connect, haunting him. He carries it with him through life, like a heavy burden that cripples him on an inner level. He has to keep things at a certain distance, so that the pain doesn't get to be so much that he can't take it anymore.

    JT1968on December 23, 2017   Link

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