Spirits

This song is about contemplating suicide and loneliness. When the narrator says I got guns in my head, he's talking about literally having guns in his head and he's thinking of pulling the trigger or just having thoughts of suicide and, he can't shake the thought of doing it. The "spririts" reference could be the voices in his head telling him to kill himself or possibly schizophrenia.

I been looking at the stars tonight And I think oh, how I miss that bright sun

This verse speaks to how the narrator is lonely. He's been staring at stars, which could be visions of him being happy or the life he wants, tonight, which is the state of loneliness that he's enduring. He wants the light, or happiness that comes with being surrounded by good people.

But we're all strange And maybe we don't wanna change

This part interests me a lot. He just talked about his loneliness but that doesn't necessarily mean he wants to leave that condition. He says that each person is strange in their own way. My take is that this person is very shy and has a very tough time being social and meeting people. While being lonely breaks this person down slowly, he doesn't have the confidence to break out of his shell and put himself out there. So he stays in isolation because it's all he knows and he'd rather be lonely than go to a party or talk to a group of people. It's sort of a vicious cycle that's on repeat.

I spent a lot of nights on the run And I think oh, like I'm lost and can't be found I'm just waiting for my day to come

The narrator can't escape loneliness because he can't be social. So when he says I'm lost and can't be found, really the only way to solve this problem is if certain people just meet him by chance and befriend him. Until then, he's just passing the days by and waiting for his time to exit this world.

And I think oh, I don't wanna let you down Cause something inside has changed And maybe we don't wanna stay the same

Now he's reaching this point where he can't live this sort of life anymore and he wants to take his life. He's had enough of being comfortable with being alone inside so he doesn't want to stay like this forever. The I don't wanna let you down part indicates that he's talking to someone about this, probably the closest person in his life. He doesn't want to take his life because he knows it will affect those that are closest to him.

And I don't want a never ending life I just want to be alive while I'm here

It's pretty straightforward, the narrator does not care about living a long time, but if he's going to be here he wants to live it to the fullest and make the most of it. His desire for a better life is still there but it's fading because he's realized he'll probably never escape his depression. It kind of makes sense too, if you're not going to enjoy life or bring other people joy, what's the point of hanging around? It's in his mind, a rational decision. Also notice in the song when the singer sings "here", his voice cracks and he sounds weak. It shows he's kind of on his last leg and is desperate.

And I don't want to see another night Lost inside a lonely life while I'm here

This line pretty much sums up the whole song.

There are many other alternative meanings to this song that make great sense too. Suicide is not the only meaning to it. It's interesting how it's so upbeat and kind of happy but the message is so dark. Hope this helped!