I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
I didn't want to go
Go back and look for you
But it's a heartless drug
I'm addicted to
And when I drive that road
And start to feel that chill
I think I see your face
Do you come here still?
Those were the times and these were the places
Your love was so good
And now that I'm here I suddenly find that
I'm tumbling backward
I'm back to where I was before
Dreaming of glory and your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
The chemicals react
The molecules collide
The poison works it's way
Somewhere down inside
When we were young
I really believed love would never leave us
But time has a knack of pulling the rug out from underneath us
And nothing matters anymore
I'm still a victim of your love
And now I'm banging on your door
Time rolling backwards with your love
Over and over with your love
I know they're only ghosts and memories that I'm clutching at
And maybe I'm reaching back for something I never had
Still it seems so real to me
These ragged threads that lead me back to you
(Losing my mind waiting for you)
I'm back to where I was before
Time rolling backwards with your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
And where are all the dreams we had
Fractured and frozen with your love
You put a spell upon me that
Can never be broken with your love
Nowhere to run to but your love
Over and over with your love
Go back and look for you
But it's a heartless drug
I'm addicted to
And when I drive that road
And start to feel that chill
I think I see your face
Do you come here still?
Those were the times and these were the places
Your love was so good
And now that I'm here I suddenly find that
I'm tumbling backward
I'm back to where I was before
Dreaming of glory and your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
The chemicals react
The molecules collide
The poison works it's way
Somewhere down inside
When we were young
I really believed love would never leave us
But time has a knack of pulling the rug out from underneath us
And nothing matters anymore
I'm still a victim of your love
And now I'm banging on your door
Time rolling backwards with your love
Over and over with your love
I know they're only ghosts and memories that I'm clutching at
And maybe I'm reaching back for something I never had
Still it seems so real to me
These ragged threads that lead me back to you
(Losing my mind waiting for you)
I'm back to where I was before
Time rolling backwards with your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
And where are all the dreams we had
Fractured and frozen with your love
You put a spell upon me that
Can never be broken with your love
Nowhere to run to but your love
Over and over with your love
Lyrics submitted by badwolf13, edited by 60_miles_an_hour
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