The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
pretending to remember
our last december
and everything it was
hoping to fix the broken
stood by the fire place
the flames would light my face
and every thing i said
i practiced in my head
and all that i could do
was recite my lies to you
pretending to recall the way it was last fall
well ive got better days
i think this time of year you see everything too clear
and still can't understand a thing
and everything i said
i practiced in my head
and all that i could do
was recite my lies to you
i cant forget a word you said
and everything it meant
instead of you,
i fear myself
please take back everything i gave to you
pretending to remember
our last december
and everything it was
hoping to fix the broken
stood by the fire place
the flames would light my face
and every thing i said
i practiced in my head
and all that i could do
was recite my lies to you
i cant forget a word you said
and everything it meant
instead of you
i fear myself
cause your uncomfortable with me
why cant i just understand what inside you
is it just guts and black stuff
ill find out soon
cause anything that you do or say
couldn't compare to the pain
that i felt
the day that we said
we'd go our separate ways.
our last december
and everything it was
hoping to fix the broken
stood by the fire place
the flames would light my face
and every thing i said
i practiced in my head
and all that i could do
was recite my lies to you
pretending to recall the way it was last fall
well ive got better days
i think this time of year you see everything too clear
and still can't understand a thing
and everything i said
i practiced in my head
and all that i could do
was recite my lies to you
i cant forget a word you said
and everything it meant
instead of you,
i fear myself
please take back everything i gave to you
pretending to remember
our last december
and everything it was
hoping to fix the broken
stood by the fire place
the flames would light my face
and every thing i said
i practiced in my head
and all that i could do
was recite my lies to you
i cant forget a word you said
and everything it meant
instead of you
i fear myself
cause your uncomfortable with me
why cant i just understand what inside you
is it just guts and black stuff
ill find out soon
cause anything that you do or say
couldn't compare to the pain
that i felt
the day that we said
we'd go our separate ways.
Lyrics submitted by thisisjoshy
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