Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
Samantha... You swore,
You'd never turned that trick before.
Keep waiting... For war,
You'll never win, you'll lose again.
I won't swing the balance in your favour...
Your defeat is my favourite flavour...
Samantha...
You wore me out.
Samantha...
You used me up.
Samantha... Your war,
Was a lost cause before I came.
Keep praying... Pray for,
The pretty things you won't get back.
Steal my soul and stab my back once more...
But you'll come from dark alleyways to score...
Once more...
Samantha...
You wore me out.
Samantha...
You burned me down.
But look in my eyes, there's nothing there.
Goodbye...
Wanted you all, with my whole life.
Goodnight...
Wanted your life...
Samantha...
Well no one can regain,
Your innocence again,
And your sins are pouring down,
Like rain...
But I love your angry pain...
Go and hit the streets again,
Cause theres nothing here for you...
Leave the money by the bed,
In the gutter where you live!
And I'll throw it all away!
Yeah, I'll throw it in your face!
And if you were on fire,
I would just throw kerosene!
And I love so much I hate!
And I hate what you have seen of me!
Samantha!
(*Echoes*
You wore me out...
Samantha...
You used me up...
*Echoes*)
You used...
Oh, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back to me.
Baby, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back at me.
And I live in this hole,
And I die in this cage,
And, oh, you hold the keys to the zoo.
And I don't wanna go,
But I can't seem to come,
And it's not up to me,
It's up to you.
And the plane is on fire,
And we're all gonna die,
And we're all going down this time.
You can lead a whore to water,
You can lead a whore to freedom,
But you can't drink away whats mine.
Samantha...
You'd never turned that trick before.
Keep waiting... For war,
You'll never win, you'll lose again.
I won't swing the balance in your favour...
Your defeat is my favourite flavour...
Samantha...
You wore me out.
Samantha...
You used me up.
Samantha... Your war,
Was a lost cause before I came.
Keep praying... Pray for,
The pretty things you won't get back.
Steal my soul and stab my back once more...
But you'll come from dark alleyways to score...
Once more...
Samantha...
You wore me out.
Samantha...
You burned me down.
But look in my eyes, there's nothing there.
Goodbye...
Wanted you all, with my whole life.
Goodnight...
Wanted your life...
Samantha...
Well no one can regain,
Your innocence again,
And your sins are pouring down,
Like rain...
But I love your angry pain...
Go and hit the streets again,
Cause theres nothing here for you...
Leave the money by the bed,
In the gutter where you live!
And I'll throw it all away!
Yeah, I'll throw it in your face!
And if you were on fire,
I would just throw kerosene!
And I love so much I hate!
And I hate what you have seen of me!
Samantha!
(*Echoes*
You wore me out...
Samantha...
You used me up...
*Echoes*)
You used...
Oh, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back to me.
Baby, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back,
Baby, don't look back at me.
And I live in this hole,
And I die in this cage,
And, oh, you hold the keys to the zoo.
And I don't wanna go,
But I can't seem to come,
And it's not up to me,
It's up to you.
And the plane is on fire,
And we're all gonna die,
And we're all going down this time.
You can lead a whore to water,
You can lead a whore to freedom,
But you can't drink away whats mine.
Samantha...
Lyrics submitted by Breakingbenjaminfan
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Samantha, you swore You never turned that trick before Keep waiting for a war You'll never win You'll lose again
Watch her wrap her legs around this world Can't take that gutter from the girl
Samantha You burned me out Samantha It's over now Samantha
Your war Was a lost cause before I came Keep praying Pray for The pretty things you won't get back
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People like you fuck people like me In order to avoid agony People like you fuck people like me In order to avoid suffering
People like you fuck people like me Fuck people like you Fuck people like me Fuck people like you Fuck people like me Fuck people like you Fuck people like me
(Fuck people like you) Leave your money by the bed (Fuck people like me) (Fuck people like you) In the gutter where you live (Fuck people like me) And I throw it all away And I throw it in your face And if you were on fire I would just throw kerosene Cause I love so much I hate And I hate what you have seen in me
Samantha
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