This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
First start out with the wrong place at the right time
And that's where you'll find me.
Next add in all the fucked up shit I've done
But somehow kept inside me.
Cause while you were waiting for the sun I was turning away,
You try avoiding death by kneeling to pray,
You don't know if it's true,
But you heard there was a fire and I'm drowning in the rain.
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
That's why I'm headed below.
Once dreaming only burning wasn't quite
A part of us in every all.
Just me and my diesease I knew it was a dream
It got too cold to let go.
Cause while you were waiting for the sun I was turning away,
You try avoiding death by kneeling to pray,
You don't know if it's true,
But you heard there was a fire and I'm drowning in the rain.
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
(Burn them) That's why I'm headed below.
Count all this blood on my hands,
To get me in.
Save all the sins you can't stand,
To cash them in.
Just to get me in,
JUST TO GET ME IN.
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
(Burn them) That's why I'm headed below.
And that's where you'll find me.
Next add in all the fucked up shit I've done
But somehow kept inside me.
Cause while you were waiting for the sun I was turning away,
You try avoiding death by kneeling to pray,
You don't know if it's true,
But you heard there was a fire and I'm drowning in the rain.
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
That's why I'm headed below.
Once dreaming only burning wasn't quite
A part of us in every all.
Just me and my diesease I knew it was a dream
It got too cold to let go.
Cause while you were waiting for the sun I was turning away,
You try avoiding death by kneeling to pray,
You don't know if it's true,
But you heard there was a fire and I'm drowning in the rain.
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
(Burn them) That's why I'm headed below.
Count all this blood on my hands,
To get me in.
Save all the sins you can't stand,
To cash them in.
Just to get me in,
JUST TO GET ME IN.
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
I throw my hands up to the sky just to watch them burn,
There's no-one there that you know,
(Burn them) That's why I'm headed below.
Lyrics submitted by thegingerfatone
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