@[Diderik:33655] "Your a holiday!" Was a popular term used in the 50s/60s to compliment someone on their all around. For example, not only are they beautiful, but they are fun and kind too ... just an all around "holiday".
I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
i conquered my own childhood silence and now the world is my lit confessional marquee,
but it'd take a busload of high school soccer girls to wash those hospitals off me
oh, am i clean?
nineteen.
they said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time,
they said sex will have left you aged normally,
and so i guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time
in that it will have left you aged normally
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
i wish i could feel close to somebody but i don't feel nothing.
now they say i need to quit doing all this random ffff-
now i think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating,
and there's other one's peeping through the slits in my curtains
and i never got a name for my shady compulsion
'cause i messed up and kissed my shrink in a jersey city hotel room..
and i know saying all this in public should make me feel funny,
but ya gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody.
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
but it'd take a busload of high school soccer girls to wash those hospitals off me
oh, am i clean?
nineteen.
they said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time,
they said sex will have left you aged normally,
and so i guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time
in that it will have left you aged normally
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
i wish i could feel close to somebody but i don't feel nothing.
now they say i need to quit doing all this random ffff-
now i think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating,
and there's other one's peeping through the slits in my curtains
and i never got a name for my shady compulsion
'cause i messed up and kissed my shrink in a jersey city hotel room..
and i know saying all this in public should make me feel funny,
but ya gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody.
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
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I think you pretty much got it. I read the verses <br /> <br /> "we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,<br /> how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?"<br /> <br /> a bit more literally. Given the earlier parts of the song, where he talks about his promiscuity so explicitly, I read "how many got lost" as referring to women he bonded with emotionally and actually slept with (as opposed to what your reading seems to be: people of both sexes who he bonded with emotionally) and then left behind. <br /> <br /> Either way, he's concerned that he's been too reckless with his affection, that he'd unintentionally led people to believe that they could have a deeper and more lasting relationship with him.
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"Oh am I clean? Nineteen They said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time They said sex will have left you aged normally"
On Yoni's podcast he mentions that he lost his virginity at 19. I think that may be the premise for the song. The "Am I clean" line could be interpreted in a number of ways. Maybe he felt morally filthy after having sex, especially if he just did it to do it and not be virgin anymore. It could also have a double meaning with him being a virgin feeling like a weight on his shoulders, like some baggage he'd been carrying around for too long and after shedding it all off, asks if he's finally clean. Which would make sense with all the pressure our society and culture place on men to be hypersexual in their teenage years.
The childhood silence could just be referencing an absence of sex while growing up. However, on his podcast he also talks about how he was very shy and quite as a kid. Perhaps having sex was something that helped him come out of his shell. And maybe that lead to him being able to better express himself/get some of the deeper, darker shit off his chest -- which is actually one of the reasons why I really admire his work. Not all, but many artists' -- especially hip-hop artists/rappers -- lyrics seem to build up their egos, while Yoni's is usually tearing his down, talking about things like hair loss, disease, porn/masturbation, shame/depression, psychological disorders, etc.
There's just this realness and sincerity to Yoni that's very hard to come by. You can tell that, for him, music is usually more for therapeutic purposes than it is for entertainment or business.
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Lovin' this.
It should be "Matchbox cars"
thanks, typed it up so fast i didn't even notice that typo
High school sucker girls?
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I too thought it was sucker but i think it gets the same point across either way
I got sort of a 50's doo-wop vibe from the beginning, anyone else?
Yeah I got that too. I love the beginning.
During that whole mid section prior to "We Found..." does anyone else think that Yoni is sounding uncannily like Avey Tare from Animal Collective? For a second I thought they had gotten him to cameo!
Kind of obvious, but the last section references the song Dream On Cortelyou from Oaklandazulasylum.
i think both are referencing cortelyou place, which is a street in cincinnati