Ov Fire and the Void

Direct quote from the album before the lyrics of Ov Fire and the Void:

"The divine is God's concern; the human, man's. My concern is neither the divine nor the human, not the true, good, just, free, etc., but solely what is mine, and it is not a general one, but is -- unique, as I am unique. Nothing is more to me than myself! - Max Stirner"

so basically now the song speaks for itself...like Nergal is repeating the word "I"... "I the Sun ov man I son ov perdition I pulse ov existence I divine Iconoclast"

my halo fallen and crushed upon the earth that I may bring balance to this world

Satan - an angel who fell from grace as he would not bow down to man as they were born of clay and he of fire - an evil to balance the good. Something like that anyways

its all boils down to faith all the logic in the world can not save me if i dont beleive that there is a a purpose. because there will always be something that can not be explained by logic. Satan and God are outdated terms. I cant close my eyes to the obvious - that we are the offspring of amebas. Whats more interesting is how did amebas come to exist. Here is where "god" and "satan" come into question. All life comes from the same source. Even if its from outer space. Adam and Eve are the most primordial and basic form of life. And everything about them is true. how they realized they are naked (the need to obscure the truth in order to survive) The need for mind games which have become more and more elaborate with the development of the brain (memory capacity) The more my memory can hold - the more elaborate mind games I can invent. Do I think there is no lie in the animal world? A certain type of fish has learned to do the following: Males will look at other males who are interested in certain females and will also be interested in that same female. Knowing that, some males would fake interest to lesser females who they dont really have interest for, so that other males will crowd around that female. Crows watch carefully as other crows sometimes hide their food and go steal it. Some crows learn to fake that they hide food to fool other crows and then go hide it else where. Of corse that only works on young and unexperienced crows. So do I see now? I am the offspring of amebas So why? Whats the purpose? Who created amebas? The lyrics are beautiful. But thats not Satan. Thats me. What is rage? When a baby kicks inside the womb is that not rage? A very basic and small form of rage? Where doesit come from? It comes because the baby can feel the mother's rage as small and faint as it may be. Rage, stress, tension - the same thing with different intensity, So do I see? The seeds of rage come from the mother (father). So in fact they come from the most basic life form. The first life form. But there is no "first" life form. Because the universe is infinite. Life has always existed. There have been billions of "big bang"s. And life has survived them all. If "god" created life, then isn't god also life? Who created god? No one. Rather, the entity I call "god" has always existed. It has no beginning or end. Its not "god". Its not something that creates, because if something creates then it must also have been created. So life was not created. It has existed always. Life and god are the same thing. But how can something be infinite. I want to imagine whats the purpose of life and why it exists but all logic leads me to the thought that life is infinite. If i try to imagine that its infinite, I cant. It only confuses me. How can life have no beginning? But at the same time it cant be finite. I cant imagine it all have a beginning, because the lack of anything before that beginning is just disturbing. Impossible. It can not be finite because the very thought of a beginning suggests that there was something before that. And also the thought of and end with nothing after that is just terrible. It makes me feel that I will cease to exist forever. That is horrible i cry. But then I realize I'm still alive and even that horrible thought didnt end my life, so it must not be true. If it was true then I would have reached the total truth and there would be no more meaning of life. But since I am still alive then that means life continues and that total truth is not true. So my logic cancels itself out. The only thing I have left is faith. I believe now.

its all boils down to faith all the logic in the world can not save me if i dont beleive that there is a a purpose. because there will always be something that can not be explained by logic. Satan and God are outdated terms. I cant close my eyes to the obvious - that we are the offspring of amebas. Whats more interesting is how did amebas come to exist. Here is where "god" and "satan" come into question. All life comes from the same source. Even if its from outer space. Adam and Eve are the most primordial and basic form of life. And everything about them is true. how they realized they are naked (the need to obscure the truth in order to survive) The need for mind games which have become more and more elaborate with the development of the brain (memory capacity) The more my memory can hold - the more elaborate mind games I can invent. Do I think there is no lie in the animal world? A certain type of fish has learned to do the following: Males will look at other males who are interested in certain females and will also be interested in that same female. Knowing that, some males would fake interest to lesser females who they dont really have interest for, so that other males will crowd around that female. Crows watch carefully as other crows sometimes hide their food and go steal it. Some crows learn to fake that they hide food to fool other crows and then go hide it else where. Of corse that only works on young and unexperienced crows. So do I see now? I am the offspring of amebas So why? Whats the purpose? Who created amebas? The lyrics are beautiful. But thats not Satan. Thats me. What is rage? When a baby kicks inside the womb is that not rage? A very basic and small form of rage? Where doesit come from? It comes because the baby can feel the mother's rage as small and faint as it may be. Rage, stress, tension - the same thing with different intensity, So do I see? The seeds of rage come from the mother (father). So in fact they come from the most basic life form. The first life form. But there is no "first" life form. Because the universe is infinite. Life has always existed. There have been billions of "big bang"s. And life has survived them all. If "god" created life, then isn't god also life? Who created god? No one. Rather, the entity I call "god" has always existed. It has no beginning or end. Its not "god". Its not something that creates, because if something creates then it must also have been created. So life was not created. It has existed always. Life and god are the same thing. But how can something be infinite. I want to imagine whats the purpose of life and why it exists but all logic leads me to the thought that life is infinite. If i try to imagine that its infinite, I cant. It only confuses me. How can life have no beginning? But at the same time it cant be finite. I cant imagine it all have a beginning, because the lack of anything before that beginning is just disturbing. Impossible. It can not be finite because the very thought of a beginning suggests that there was something before that. And also the thought of and end with nothing after that is just terrible. It makes me feel that I will cease to exist forever. That is horrible i cry. But then I realize I'm still alive and even that horrible thought didnt end my life, so it must not be true. If it was true then I would have reached the total truth and there would be no more meaning of life. But since I am still alive then that means life continues and that total truth is not true. So my logic cancels itself out. The only thing I have left is faith. I believe now.