This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I wanted so bad to be your girl
I tried thinking about all the lonely nights I cried
I look back, what a waste of time
Should've realized I couldn't change your mind
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
Now that it's over you act so shocked
Guess you never listened all the times I talked
I gave you countless chances
You never seemed to care, treated me like trash
You thought I'd always be there
You're telling lies to anyone who will listen
You want so bad to be the victim
But what you've gotta see is our relationship
And break up is not a competition
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I'm trying to fix mine from the start
Now you're acting like Mr. Perfect
To figure out what you did to deserve it
I was not the only one to do things wrong
You've been a dick to me all along
I know what I did was pretty rotten
Now it's like everything you did is forgotten
But go ahead and tell your sob story
All I have to say about it is blow me
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
I tried thinking about all the lonely nights I cried
I look back, what a waste of time
Should've realized I couldn't change your mind
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
Now that it's over you act so shocked
Guess you never listened all the times I talked
I gave you countless chances
You never seemed to care, treated me like trash
You thought I'd always be there
You're telling lies to anyone who will listen
You want so bad to be the victim
But what you've gotta see is our relationship
And break up is not a competition
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I'm trying to fix mine from the start
Now you're acting like Mr. Perfect
To figure out what you did to deserve it
I was not the only one to do things wrong
You've been a dick to me all along
I know what I did was pretty rotten
Now it's like everything you did is forgotten
But go ahead and tell your sob story
All I have to say about it is blow me
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
Now I'm glad you've got a broken heart
'Cause I've been trying to fix mine from the start
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wow this actually seems like a serious song
bahahah i love this song so much. take that, bitch. you were a shitty boyfriend and deserve everything bad that comes to you. :)
Now that it's over you act so shocked Guess you never listened all the times I talked I gave you countless chances You never seemed to care; treated me like trash You thought I'd always be there You're telling lies to anyone who will listen You want so bad to be the victim
= guy was a shit boyfriend. it ends. he regrets being a douchebag. tells people he loves her and a bunch of crap. but she doesnt give a shit, and hopes his heart doesn't mend cause he treated her real badly. i fucking love this hahaha, i think it applies to basically every teen relationship... ever. :]