Rolling

All my life I've been selling the truth of a lifeless soul - I think he is talking about how the world brainwashes us. We think we have beliefs, but they are really just imposed on us by our parents, friends, the media, etc. We repeat those beliefs as if they are ours, and we may even believe that they are. But one day, as we get older, we realize what has happened. Our eyes open, we wake up, and we start to doubt those beliefs or at least re-examine them.

All my life, I've been waiting for something to lead me home - I think he thought there were answers in life and it was just a matter of time before they came. But he finally realized that there are no answers, and that everyone is just muddling through and figuring it out as they go along. It is a difficult realization to accept.

You haven't seen what I saw, 17 months a year...when it rained - He went through a really hard time in his life that seemed to last forever, and it was that time that caused him to realize these things.

By all the power in me, I do what I have to now - It's a struggle to keep on going once you wake up to the real world, to keep doing all these distracting, annoying things that we have to do in life that keep us from being about to truly think and fully live, but he's doing it.

Rolling out of my bed I still can't find the truth I've been searching for - He's been looking outside of himself for meaning and answers, but they aren't there.

Going back instead I shut my eyes, dream who I could be once more - Instead he has to look back inside himself to figure out his own vision, his own beliefs, his own values, without being distracted or influenced.

They say the trouble with me is that I'm one who knows but I just don't understand - He is the type of person who has a vision of the way things should be or could be, but has trouble accepting things as they are and finds it difficult to understand why things just can't be like his perfectionistic vision.

Rolling back my head I think I've learned that I do want to live...again - He knows life is and can be wonderful, and wants to be out in the real world, and just needs to figure out how to do it in a way that will allow him to retain his own beliefs and be himself.

All my friends, they've been telling me you are the kindred soul - His friends know and believe he is a close friend who really cares and thinks about things and they appreciate and respect that.

All my friends, if they only knew who I was before, but - He doesn't feel worthy of that appreciation and respect because of thoughts and feelings that he has had in the past.

They haven't been where I've been, 17 months a year - We all have hard times, though they are all different. Others cannot truly understand the times we have had, just as we cannot truly understand their experiences.

That's such a lonely place, I don't want to live in fear - It was a lonely time because he felt that no one else understood him and his feelings and that is painful. But he doesn't want to hide from the world and avoid everyone and the pain that they can cause. If you do that, you miss out on good things as well.

Basically, becoming an adult is really tough and we have to hunker down and do what needs to be done and go on in life no matter what happens as we figure things out because there really isn't any other choice. But there are so many pleasures in life and life is so wonderful if we just don't get distracted by all the crap out there and as long as we remain true to ourselves.