This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Holiday
And I come home
I hope to see this boy I know
I cant wait for us to be alone
Flipping through the radio
We sing along to the indie show
The songs they plague me more than I can say
In the tape I made you
Hope you think of me when it plays through
Feel kind of sad now that its done
And you think my times were free
All the ways you say to me
Sweet versions of lets wait and see
But you're always a golden boy
And I'm the girl that you enjoy
My parents say Is'nt he a gifted son
Time is always passing by
And still I have to wonder why
You cant come to tell me I'm the one
Summer goes and we have grown
We have our friends live on our own
Still I'm not the girl you want me to be
Say gravity can bend the time
Funny I always liked your mind
But this whole thing is crushing me
But you're always a golden boy
In this girls heart that you destroyed
You smile at me then have your fun
Time is always passing by
Still I give you another try
And hope that you will see that I'm the one
Say your scared
Get too close
Come lets see how it goes
See you now at the show
7th in the 7th row
Now when you look at me
You see what I've known for so long
Sad that you can be so lovely and so wrong
Came to say that I've moved
I see your face
You don't approve
I guess you could say that I'm already gone
But your always be my golden boy
I'm the summer girl
That you enjoyed
Some melodies are best left undone
I feel the time pass away
But in my songs you'll always stay
Don't need for you to tell me I'm the one
No, no
I don't need you to tell me I'm the one
You'll never know that I was the one
And I come home
I hope to see this boy I know
I cant wait for us to be alone
Flipping through the radio
We sing along to the indie show
The songs they plague me more than I can say
In the tape I made you
Hope you think of me when it plays through
Feel kind of sad now that its done
And you think my times were free
All the ways you say to me
Sweet versions of lets wait and see
But you're always a golden boy
And I'm the girl that you enjoy
My parents say Is'nt he a gifted son
Time is always passing by
And still I have to wonder why
You cant come to tell me I'm the one
Summer goes and we have grown
We have our friends live on our own
Still I'm not the girl you want me to be
Say gravity can bend the time
Funny I always liked your mind
But this whole thing is crushing me
But you're always a golden boy
In this girls heart that you destroyed
You smile at me then have your fun
Time is always passing by
Still I give you another try
And hope that you will see that I'm the one
Say your scared
Get too close
Come lets see how it goes
See you now at the show
7th in the 7th row
Now when you look at me
You see what I've known for so long
Sad that you can be so lovely and so wrong
Came to say that I've moved
I see your face
You don't approve
I guess you could say that I'm already gone
But your always be my golden boy
I'm the summer girl
That you enjoyed
Some melodies are best left undone
I feel the time pass away
But in my songs you'll always stay
Don't need for you to tell me I'm the one
No, no
I don't need you to tell me I'm the one
You'll never know that I was the one
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