Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
if you could only keep me alive
i swear that somehow we could find this
way to change my life
and help me sing this
because the rain, it hit this town
and washed away half of my faith, but now i'm ready to feel
what i've been feeling
and then the sun, it hit my face
and made me think of all the things that made me pray
like when i stood up all this cocaine hit my heart
then all the sudden i'm in love
oh god, it's almost summer
i hope addiction took my heart because i'm
looking for a hook that could just
hold me back from tearing out these speakers
it's not the sound that drowns me out
but all this doubt that broke me down
you were my friend, but now i'm taking you to hell
if you could hold my hand
you could feel what i've been feeling
i wrote this song for you
it's not the reasons that i left
it's just the ones that kept me hanging onto you
so hold me down to
writing letters
like the song said
i'm so much better
when i'm gone
you could take your time
because i'm living off this antidote
if you could hold my hand
you could feel what i was feeling
when i wrote this song
i wrote this song for you
(if you could only keep me from letting this go
if you could only keep me from singing this sound)
but my pride, it killed this town
and remember what you said, but i'm still proud
and you could feel what i've been feeling
i swear that somehow we could find this
way to change my life
and help me sing this
because the rain, it hit this town
and washed away half of my faith, but now i'm ready to feel
what i've been feeling
and then the sun, it hit my face
and made me think of all the things that made me pray
like when i stood up all this cocaine hit my heart
then all the sudden i'm in love
oh god, it's almost summer
i hope addiction took my heart because i'm
looking for a hook that could just
hold me back from tearing out these speakers
it's not the sound that drowns me out
but all this doubt that broke me down
you were my friend, but now i'm taking you to hell
if you could hold my hand
you could feel what i've been feeling
i wrote this song for you
it's not the reasons that i left
it's just the ones that kept me hanging onto you
so hold me down to
writing letters
like the song said
i'm so much better
when i'm gone
you could take your time
because i'm living off this antidote
if you could hold my hand
you could feel what i was feeling
when i wrote this song
i wrote this song for you
(if you could only keep me from letting this go
if you could only keep me from singing this sound)
but my pride, it killed this town
and remember what you said, but i'm still proud
and you could feel what i've been feeling
Lyrics submitted by SMILExxiloveyou
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