This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
The problem I have with the soul contraption,
Swallowed up slowly like a bad reaction,
All around what you do and say, while the symptom falls further away
You live in silence, but you can't describe it,
So what's the point of talking at all?
The store bought injury, the family cane
Just another boy, bad at the game
This is when you need a friend to keep you moving around
Because all your thinking has made you slow-
You might be stopping out, you know
Frustrated fireworks inside your head,
There's a lit fuse smoking, you caught instead
It's what you're dealing, but it's just a start
Was a time since your problem was a poison dart
And you act like a cowboy, whatever's in my hat
I'm a hardboiled hero, and I'm not so bad
But I didn't know when to run from this
A proud fan is going to see you shatter
I know that there really isn't anything the matter
Nothing is going to be crying words, they only want their voice to be heard
They use it sometimes, to show that they're around
Or they build you up a theory, like the walls of a town
A tired and ancient ruler right now
The neighborhood slaves are hardly skilled
Open your parachute, and drop your weight
Float on down to the center, and investigate
I did my self-requirement, better cop out hard,
Or I'll leave right now
Because this feeling of loving, I felt it in my chest
Like the nighttime footsteps of an unknown guest
I know it wasn't me, I wasn't moving..
I felt thunder, the rain was pouring
I know it must be something wrong, all this is restoring
You don't have to live in a lifeless state.
Stay in the center and wait
Stay in the center and wait
Stay in the center and wait
Swallowed up slowly like a bad reaction,
All around what you do and say, while the symptom falls further away
You live in silence, but you can't describe it,
So what's the point of talking at all?
The store bought injury, the family cane
Just another boy, bad at the game
This is when you need a friend to keep you moving around
Because all your thinking has made you slow-
You might be stopping out, you know
Frustrated fireworks inside your head,
There's a lit fuse smoking, you caught instead
It's what you're dealing, but it's just a start
Was a time since your problem was a poison dart
And you act like a cowboy, whatever's in my hat
I'm a hardboiled hero, and I'm not so bad
But I didn't know when to run from this
A proud fan is going to see you shatter
I know that there really isn't anything the matter
Nothing is going to be crying words, they only want their voice to be heard
They use it sometimes, to show that they're around
Or they build you up a theory, like the walls of a town
A tired and ancient ruler right now
The neighborhood slaves are hardly skilled
Open your parachute, and drop your weight
Float on down to the center, and investigate
I did my self-requirement, better cop out hard,
Or I'll leave right now
Because this feeling of loving, I felt it in my chest
Like the nighttime footsteps of an unknown guest
I know it wasn't me, I wasn't moving..
I felt thunder, the rain was pouring
I know it must be something wrong, all this is restoring
You don't have to live in a lifeless state.
Stay in the center and wait
Stay in the center and wait
Stay in the center and wait
Lyrics submitted by first timer, edited by Mellow_Harsher, Signara, Jate
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