Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
All I can ever be to you is a darkness that we knew
And this regret I got accustomed to
Once it was so right
When we were at our height
Waiting for ya in the hotel at night
I knew I hadn't met my match
But every moment we could snatch
I don't know why I got so attached
It's my responsibility
You don't owe nothing to me
But to walk away, I have no capacity
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown (I'm grown)
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
I don't understand
Why do I stress the man
When there's so many bigger things at hand?
We could've never had it all
We had to hit a wall
So this is inevitable withdrawal
Even if I stop wanting you
And perspective pushes through
I'll be some next man's other woman soon
I cannot play my self again
I should just be my own best friend
Not fuck my self in the head with stupid men
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown (I'm grown)
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
So we are history
Your shadow covers me
The sky above ablaze
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
I wish I could sing no regrets
And no emotional debt
'Cause as we kissed goodbye, the sun sets
So we are history
Your shadow covers me
The sky above ablaze
That only lovers see
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown (I'm grown)
And in your way
My blue shade
My tears dry on their own
Whoa, he walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I am grown
And in your way
My deep shade
My tears dry on their own, whoa
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown
And in your way
My deep shade
My tears dry
And this regret I got accustomed to
Once it was so right
When we were at our height
Waiting for ya in the hotel at night
I knew I hadn't met my match
But every moment we could snatch
I don't know why I got so attached
It's my responsibility
You don't owe nothing to me
But to walk away, I have no capacity
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown (I'm grown)
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
I don't understand
Why do I stress the man
When there's so many bigger things at hand?
We could've never had it all
We had to hit a wall
So this is inevitable withdrawal
Even if I stop wanting you
And perspective pushes through
I'll be some next man's other woman soon
I cannot play my self again
I should just be my own best friend
Not fuck my self in the head with stupid men
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown (I'm grown)
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
So we are history
Your shadow covers me
The sky above ablaze
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
I wish I could sing no regrets
And no emotional debt
'Cause as we kissed goodbye, the sun sets
So we are history
Your shadow covers me
The sky above ablaze
That only lovers see
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown (I'm grown)
And in your way
My blue shade
My tears dry on their own
Whoa, he walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I am grown
And in your way
My deep shade
My tears dry on their own, whoa
He walks away
The sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown
And in your way
My deep shade
My tears dry
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The Night We Met
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This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
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Bee Gees
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@[Diderik:33655] "Your a holiday!" Was a popular term used in the 50s/60s to compliment someone on their all around. For example, not only are they beautiful, but they are fun and kind too ... just an all around "holiday".
I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
Mountain Song
Jane's Addiction
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Jane's Addiction vocalist Perry Farrell gives Adam Reader some heartfelt insight into Jane’s Addiction's hard rock manifesto "Mountain Song", which was the second single from their revolutionary album Nothing's Shocking. Mountain song was first recorded in 1986 and appeared on the soundtrack to the film Dudes starring Jon Cryer. The version on Nothing's Shocking was re-recorded in 1988.
"'Mountain Song' was actually about... I hate to say it but... drugs. Climbing this mountain and getting as high as you can, and then coming down that mountain," reveals Farrell. "What it feels to descend from the mountain top... not easy at all. The ascension is tough but exhilarating. Getting down is... it's a real bummer. Drugs is not for everybody obviously. For me, I wanted to experience the heights, and the lows come along with it."
"There's a part - 'Cash in now honey, cash in Miss Smith.' Miss Smith is my Mother; our last name was Smith. Cashing in when she cashed in her life. So... she decided that, to her... at that time, she was desperate. Life wasn't worth it for her, that was her opinion. Some people think, never take your life, and some people find that their life isn't worth living. She was in love with my Dad, and my Dad was not faithful to her, and it broke her heart. She was very desperate and she did something that I know she regrets."
When We Were Young
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This is a sequel to 2001's "Reckless Abandon", and features the band looking back on their clumsy youth fondly.
". . . and she's left to dry her own tears."
I see an image even sadder than that. She doesn't bother to dry her own tears -- they dry on their own with her makeup streaming down her face. I agree it's about being the other woman. But, moreover, it's about going into a sexual relationship just for kicks with someone you know you can never have a future with, then, inadvertently falling so in love with him you can't even see the sun in the sky when he's not around. It is such a beautifully written song. So descriptive . . . If you haven't been there (though I'm sure quite a few of us have), you certainly know how it would feel after listening to this song. I think it's one of the best on the album.
@crabbygrrl she means she has no one to comfort her and her tears dry on their own. It's not about makeup.
I don't know why no one commented on this one. Personally it's my favorite on the album. I love it. And her.
If you listen to the track "back to black" you can see there is a theme at work here on the album. I have to confess I identifed with this song because I have played the male role in this scenario. And it's not as one sided as the song suggests. It's painful for everyone. I relate to everything in this song, the redezvous scenarios, the secretive nature of the relationship, cheating, sneaking around whatever you want to call it, the inevitabile termination. It's forbidden, but not what you'd call "unrequited love." It's temporary and you both know it. It's deep, and way complicated. Very emotional, jarring and the pain lasts a long long time. Once was enough for me. My favorite track by far on the album.
All I can ever be to you Is a darkness that we knew And this regret I got accustomed to
<b><i>She is remorseful that all she'll be to him is a bootycall.</b></i>
Once it was so right When we were at our height Waiting for you in the hotel at night
<b><i> When they were at their most hot and heavy (euphoric and/or intense) stage their sneaking around felt right for her. She would eagerly wait in a hotel for him to sneak out on his significant other in the middle of the night.</b></i>
I knew I hadn't met my match With every moment we could snatch I don't know why I got so attached
<b><i>She knew he wasn't the right man for her but she still fell for him anyways and didn't know why.</b></i>
It's my responsibility And you don't owe nothing to me But to walk away I have no capacity
<b><i>She's been through the affair/jumpoff/bootycall/mistress position before and takes responsibility for falling for him though it was supposed to be casual. She knows it was just no strings attached but she couldn't believe he just dropped her without a second thought and/or explanation </b></i>
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your way, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
<b><i>She thought of him as the highlight in her life that made her happy and when he walked away she became depressed. But she keeps telling herself she's an adult woman who's been through this and she will dry her own tears. </b></i>
I don't understand Why do I stress the man When there's so many real good things at hand?
<b><i>She has a tendency of chasing away men because of her neediness and probably clings on or starts fights.</b></i>
We could have never had it all And we had to hit a wall So this is inevitable withdrawal
<b><i>She recognizes that this was a relationship that was going nowhere because he wasn't going to leave his wife or significant other. She also recognizes that men are addictions for her and she's going through withdrawals from her latest failed situation.</b></i>
Even if I stop wanting you A perspective pushes through: I'll be some next man's other woman soon
<b><i>She realizes that if she moved on from him she would end up in the same situation. She has a cycle of always being the mistress and never the one and only.</b></i>
I cannot blame myself again I should just be my own best friend Not fuck myself in the head with stupid men
<b><i>She's done beating herself up and realizes she needs to love herself rather than look for love in all the wrong places...
The rest is self-explanatory</b></i>
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your grey, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
So we are history Your shadow covers me The sky above, a blaze
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your grey, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
I wish I could say no regrets And no emotional debts Cos as we kiss goodbye the sun sets
So we are history Your shadow covers me The sky above, a blaze lonely lovers see
All I can ever be to you Is a darkness that we knew And this regret I got accustomed to
<b><i>She is remorseful that all she'll be to him is a bootycall.</b></i>
Once it was so right When we were at our height Waiting for you in the hotel at night
<b><i> When they were at their most hot and heavy (euphoric and/or intense) stage their sneaking around felt right for her. She would eagerly wait in a hotel for him to sneak out on his significant other in the middle of the night.</b></i>
I knew I hadn't met my match With every moment we could snatch I don't know why I got so attached
<b><i>She knew he wasn't the right man for her but she still fell for him anyways and didn't know why.</b></i>
It's my responsibility And you don't owe nothing to me But to walk away I have no capacity
<b><i>She's been through the affair/jumpoff/bootycall/mistress position before and takes responsibility for falling for him though it was supposed to be casual. She knows it was just no strings attached but she couldn't believe he just dropped her without a second thought and/or explanation </b></i>
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your way, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
<b><i>She thought of him as the highlight in her life that made her happy and when he walked away she became depressed. But she keeps telling herself she's an adult woman who's been through this and she will dry her own tears. </b></i>
I don't understand Why do I stress the man When there's so many real good things at hand?
<b><i>She has a tendency of chasing away men because of her neediness and probably clings on or starts fights.</b></i>
We could have never had it all And we had to hit a wall So this is inevitable withdrawal
<b><i>She recognizes that this was a relationship that was going nowhere because he wasn't going to leave his wife or significant other. She also recognizes that men are addictions for her and she's going through withdrawals from her latest failed situation.</b></i>
Even if I stop wanting you A perspective pushes through: I'll be some next man's other woman soon
<b><i>She realizes that if she moved on from him she would end up in the same situation. She has a cycle of always being the mistress and never the one and only.</b></i>
I cannot blame myself again I should just be my own best friend Not fuck myself in the head with stupid men
<b><i>She's done beating herself up and realizes she needs to love herself rather than look for love in all the wrong places...
The rest is self-explanatory</b></i>
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your way, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
So we are history Your shadow covers me The sky above, a blaze
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your grey, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
I wish I could say no regrets And no emotional debts Cos as we kiss goodbye the sun sets
So we are history Your shadow covers me The sky above, a blaze lonely lovers see
He walks away, the sun goes down He takes the day but I'm grown And in your way, in this blue shade My tears dry on their own
<b><i>She wishes she could be ok with this but she regrets getting involved and giving her heart. They're over and his memory is a shadow that overwhelms her into a deep depression. She is alone. </b></i>
Your interpretation is so spot on, especially your final comment. Your detailed summary hits every point.
What a voice she had!
the music is basically Ain't No Mountain High Enough, right?
@jolietjakemcfly The producer used that as a templte for the pace of the song, for one thing
@jolietjakemcfly Yes indeed! I usually frown on songs built on top of other hit songs UNLESS the new creation equals or surpasses the original source. Kudos to the great songwriting team, performing artists, and life partners: (the late) Nick Ashford and Valerie Simpson; The Supremes; and Amy Winehouse for recreating a version of that masterpiece that is itself a masterpiece that ???? Stands on its own. ????
That is my favorite part of this whole song...
I cannot play myself agian Should be my own best Friend Not Fuck myself in the head with Stupid Men!!!
Awesome way to put things!!!! I absolutely love Amy Winehouse i just started to listen to her but everything she writes i feel like i've been through...
Rest peacefully Amy, what a tragic tragic waste.
This was always my favourite song of hers, it's helped me get over many a painful break up.
i think it's about how two people meet but one (lets say the guy) already has someone but still starts something and then they have to sneak around in a hotel.... 'is a darkness that we knew' so they only saw eachother to have fun wink wink....lol but then the girl starts falling for him and then he does too but she understands that nothing can come of it so is telling him not to worry... and then he eventually goes back to the other girl and she's left to dry her own tears.
I love this song.
It's about being the other woman obviously.