Ghostflowers

I love the power of this song....from the really restrained opening to the controlled vocal explosion over the 'gentle' instrumental build-up..i was quite certain this song was a woman's vengeance to her abusive partner, but enjoyed reading Bluecod's post and come to the conclusion that it's a woman's vengeance of having to abort her child and the frequent views of the aborted child...

& she's a killer & she's a keeper ...
[contradictory statements, but the first line is from the view of the aborted child that she is a killer and the second from her partner who probably gave her an ultimatum of aborting or breaking up and now considers her a "keeper"]

am i blurry in your vision was i just a poor decision [aborted child asking if when conceived, was it not a consideration or just turned out to be a burden/bad decision that needed to be reversed]

cut me open with precision & we'll finger the incision [the mother describing the abortion process, specically how unreal, humiliating, etc it is]

tell me what have i done (quid pro quo) [the mother's realisation that it wasn't the right thing to do, she immediately fills with regret, hurt, pain...and soon to be the fuel for her vengeance]

to watch you lose control [that she didn't make the right decision for herself, her body and her child]

(tunnel)

i will give you sanctuary in these hymns of Thanatos ... i will give you sanctuary! [the vocal expression and the lines themselves conflict, this to me is the mother's expression of how even the excuse that the aborted baby is not in pain and in a better place angers her knowing what just happened, i.e. she aborted the baby...and so even santuary in death cannot console her, as rational as it is...and from here, the song and vengeance builds up]

v2. you want to see me burn i am living fire! [could apply to both the mother or child...i feel they both cry this out in unison]

you want to see me burn i am LIVING FIRE!

you will know me by the scars i bare [mother carries her mark by the scar]

you will know me by the hate i swear [mother will also carry a mark of hate that unlike the scar, will continue to grow, but i like to think this is actually the aborted child saying this]

you will know me by the scars i bare [mother]

shapeless vengeance! [shape is usually referred to pregnant women, so shapeless is the lack of shape after the abortion and thus the source of the vengeance]

we are the 1000 children of death. [the child never got named, had a personality, a smile....so it's just a statistic, like the 1000 other aborted babies]

we're in-between, on the fence non-descript antagonists

i'm in-between, on the fence non-descript antagonist! [child says the above 4 lines, not sure exactly what it means, just that it's neither here on earth or in heaven]

i'll split you open & climb inside lose myself eaten alive [mother's guilt and how she could just die]

we are the 1000 children of death!

from seraphim! to nephilim! to exodus! [that both parents were seraphim, intended to having the child...good intentions, then created a nephilim where 1 of the parents were not as pure of intention and thus 2 different entities actually conceived the child]

v2. she's picking ghostflowers from her soul

she's clipping the wings of fallen angels!

she's picking ghostflowers from her soul

she's tonguing splinters of broken halos!

[above all is the despair the mother has acknowledging that she actually took all the good from what was given to her and broke it and threw it away...those are just analogies for her to having an abortion]

you will know me by the scars i bare.

you will know me by the hate i swear.

you will know me by the scars i bare.

YOU WILL KNOW ME!

(bridge)

from gelatin to specimen to emptiness [the aborted baby again, the actual abortion....gelatin, a specimen in a bottle or bucket and then nothing]

I WILL BE AVENGED. I WILL BE AVENGED.

these are the secrets that kill. that kill. that kill. that kill. that kill. that kill. that kill. that kill.

we are the 1000 children of death.