So I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide

I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me

I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave, you'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days but it's too late, too late for you to say

Because I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you, your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know, I'd let you know

All along I was faking my own suicide because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide, because you know

Because you know you will never leave my sight
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
So overjoyed with the love that's so alive, our love is so alive



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Faking My Own Suicide Lyrics as written by Matthew Thiessen

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    this is a nice song!

    It's about wanting to make someone realize how much they really love you. after all, you don't really know how important someone is until they are gone

    likeachildon December 01, 2006   Link

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