"Faking My Own Suicide" as written by and Matthew Arnold Thiessen....
So I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide

I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me

I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave, you'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days but it's too late, too late for you to say

Because I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you, your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know, I'd let you know

All along I was faking my own suicide because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide, because you know

Because you know you will never leave my sight
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
So overjoyed with the love that's so alive, our love is so alive

Lyrics submitted by Spitterman

"Faking My Own Suicide" as written by Matthew Thiessen

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    General Commentthis is a nice song!

    It's about wanting to make someone realize how much they really love you.
    after all, you don't really know how important someone is until they are gone
    likeachildon December 01, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI think it's a very clever song, though mildly creepy. Sounds nice.
    DeleteThisAccounton February 09, 2007   Link
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    General CommentIt's based on an old movie called Harold and Maude. At least, that's what it says in their bio/album summary on the site.
    matthiasnotjudason March 07, 2007   Link
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    General CommentYup this is based on the old 70's movie Harold and Maude, Matt liked a girl and wants to fake his own death to make her realize she loves him and did all along. I wanna do this when me and my girlfreind fight to make her see she loves me and when/if she breaks my heart ever so she wont and see she loves me
    snowbeast2005on March 11, 2007   Link
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    General Commentthis song is so weird because I have had dreams of me dying and then I come back and everything is happily ever after because he knows how much he loves me. I had never been able to explain it to my friends but it seems like this song sums it up :-) I really love it and can really relate
    grapeyduckling12on March 12, 2007   Link
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    General Commentactully, guys, it's told from the perspective of jesus talking about his death and ressurection.
    alt09on March 30, 2007   Link
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    General Commenti dont think its about jesus talking about his death and ressurection. i could see how it might be, but no. jesus didnt FAKE it. and it wasnt really suicide. he was doing it to save all of us.
    indiaisaprincesson April 14, 2007   Link
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    General Commenti think that it has been written so you could take it either way. as the death and resurrection of Jesus or trying to show someone how much they love you.
    yelrebmikon April 15, 2007   Link
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    General Commentit could be take either way. but matt at the show talked about the girl liking him and she didnt admit it. so he decided to fake his death. haha
    Greenbean713on April 19, 2007   Link
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    General CommentOk my interpretation is that this guy is terrified.
    i think he's realizing that his girl may just break up with him because she doesn't love him
    but hes makaing this plan to fake his own suicide.
    Because if someone dies of course they'll be sad.
    he wants her to realize that she DOES love him. and then he'll come out and say that he was just pretending.
    He's scared. he doesnt want to be depressed when she lets him go. he needs and does love her. and so if he "dies" she'll be depressed instead.

    Even though this band is a christian band. and don't get me wrong i love this band and i have for years.
    but i just dont see this song as being seen with a connection with christ. i think its a relationship of a boy and girl. Because why would they talk about jesus faking his suicide...this song clearly states for one person to realize she loves him. but jesus did it for everyone. thanks indiaisaprincess :)
    notetoself8on April 21, 2007   Link

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