Warren wanted a Beach Boys thing for this one, and Carl Wilson and Billy Hinsche came in, with Carl arranging the vocal parts. The other harmony vocalists (credited as the "Gentlemen Boys") were Jackson Browne, J.D. Souther, Zevon's longtime backers Waddy Wachtel and Jorge Calderon, and Linda Rondstadt/Stone Poneys guitarist Kenny Edwards.
How could I feel so empty
How could I go and do those things to you
When all I wanted was your happiness
How could I let it come to this
How could I be so cruel
I'm hating myself
There's a hole in my heart
I'm hating myself
How could I ever tear us apart
I'm hating myself
I couldn't see this one through
I had to stay true
But I'm hating myself
For hurting you
You are the one who could accept me
For what I really am
You are the one who listens to me
When no one understands
But I'm without you now
And I don't know how
To stand on my own two feet
I'm hating myself
There's a hole in my heart
I'm hating myself
How could I ever tear us apart
I'm hating myself
I couldn't see this one through
I had to stay true
But I'm hating myself
For hurting you
Words are left unspoken
Empty hearts are broken
Healing wounds have opened
It's all because of me
Trapped inside my mind
Too scared to run or hide
This love is suicide
It's all because of me
I'm hating myself
There's a hole in my heart
I'm hating myself
How could I ever tear us apart
I'm hating myself
I couldn't see this one through
I had to stay true
But I'm hating myself
For hurting you
How could I go and do those things to you
When all I wanted was your happiness
How could I let it come to this
How could I be so cruel
I'm hating myself
There's a hole in my heart
I'm hating myself
How could I ever tear us apart
I'm hating myself
I couldn't see this one through
I had to stay true
But I'm hating myself
For hurting you
You are the one who could accept me
For what I really am
You are the one who listens to me
When no one understands
But I'm without you now
And I don't know how
To stand on my own two feet
I'm hating myself
There's a hole in my heart
I'm hating myself
How could I ever tear us apart
I'm hating myself
I couldn't see this one through
I had to stay true
But I'm hating myself
For hurting you
Words are left unspoken
Empty hearts are broken
Healing wounds have opened
It's all because of me
Trapped inside my mind
Too scared to run or hide
This love is suicide
It's all because of me
I'm hating myself
There's a hole in my heart
I'm hating myself
How could I ever tear us apart
I'm hating myself
I couldn't see this one through
I had to stay true
But I'm hating myself
For hurting you
Lyrics submitted by NothingFinal
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Don't hate yourself, hate the stupid mothereffers who drove you to it.