This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
My visions are all clouded
I see nothing but red
This hatred has now congealed to a near climatic state
Why do I remain here to weaken through the years?
I am so confused - my soul dies all the while
I don't wish to co-exist with this feeble human race
I don't feel the need to be infected with the disease called "life"
A state of mental grief causes my mind great pain
In this emotional state
I suffer from despondency
Violent and murderous thoughts
Form deep inside my mind
Dwelling on these sights to the point where I'm insane
Why do I remain alive when I only wish to die?
I am so distressed - my soul rots all the while
I'm surrounded by life-loving shapes that exist without a choice
Your fears of death are covered up by the words "Suicide is weak"
Released from the grip of life's burdening chains
My body devoid of blood and unable to embrace pain
With death I'll grow in strength and might
Fading away without remorse
With death I'll leave this weakened earth
To become at one with the night
With death I'll grow in strength and might
Fading away without remorse
With death I'll leave this weakened earth
I am at one with the night
I see nothing but red
This hatred has now congealed to a near climatic state
Why do I remain here to weaken through the years?
I am so confused - my soul dies all the while
I don't wish to co-exist with this feeble human race
I don't feel the need to be infected with the disease called "life"
A state of mental grief causes my mind great pain
In this emotional state
I suffer from despondency
Violent and murderous thoughts
Form deep inside my mind
Dwelling on these sights to the point where I'm insane
Why do I remain alive when I only wish to die?
I am so distressed - my soul rots all the while
I'm surrounded by life-loving shapes that exist without a choice
Your fears of death are covered up by the words "Suicide is weak"
Released from the grip of life's burdening chains
My body devoid of blood and unable to embrace pain
With death I'll grow in strength and might
Fading away without remorse
With death I'll leave this weakened earth
To become at one with the night
With death I'll grow in strength and might
Fading away without remorse
With death I'll leave this weakened earth
I am at one with the night
Lyrics submitted by ruben
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