I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
When you start to take a look within
Do you feel at ease with what you see?
Do you think you can have peace of mind
And have self belief or be satisfied?
Do you even think you like yourself
Or really think you could be someone else?
Is there something that you'd rather be?
Never thought you'd be, had the chance to see
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
Feel the paranoia creepin' in
Like a cancer eatin' at the skin
Do you think you've lost your self esteem
And your self respect, what can you expect?
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
Are you scared to look inside your mind?
Are you worried just at what you'll find?
Do you really wanna face the truth?
Does it matter now, what have you got to lose?
Try to release the anger from within
Forgive yourself a few immortal sins
Do you really care what people think?
Are you strong enough to release the guilt?
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
Do you feel at ease with what you see?
Do you think you can have peace of mind
And have self belief or be satisfied?
Do you even think you like yourself
Or really think you could be someone else?
Is there something that you'd rather be?
Never thought you'd be, had the chance to see
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
Feel the paranoia creepin' in
Like a cancer eatin' at the skin
Do you think you've lost your self esteem
And your self respect, what can you expect?
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
Are you scared to look inside your mind?
Are you worried just at what you'll find?
Do you really wanna face the truth?
Does it matter now, what have you got to lose?
Try to release the anger from within
Forgive yourself a few immortal sins
Do you really care what people think?
Are you strong enough to release the guilt?
All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
All my life I've run astray
Let my faith slip away
All my life I've run astray
Allowed my faith to drift away
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