@dy;sphoria: thanks, these words make a lot more sense.
a close friend took his own life, about ten years ago.
he felt nothing could be worse than continuing to live in so much pain. ultimately he made his decision, and wouldn't have let anything stop him. before he did it, he flew to another continent so he wouldn't be within a thousand miles of those who cared about him; he was determined.
finally you get past the usual regrets: feeling you ought to have been able to prevent it somehow, survivor's guilt, anger at being left alone etc.
even so, and despite the passage of time, it changes you irrevocably.
somehow this song is deeply sad and yet comforting.
@dy;sphoria: thanks, these words make a lot more sense.
a close friend took his own life, about ten years ago.
he felt nothing could be worse than continuing to live in so much pain. ultimately he made his decision, and wouldn't have let anything stop him. before he did it, he flew to another continent so he wouldn't be within a thousand miles of those who cared about him; he was determined.
finally you get past the usual regrets: feeling you ought to have been able to prevent it somehow, survivor's guilt, anger at being left alone etc.
even so, and despite the passage of time, it changes you irrevocably.
somehow this song is deeply sad and yet comforting.