This is a good song thats about how everyone misunderstands him and how all his past experiences are making him wish he wasnt alive anymore because no one understands the real him. He is also saying that he has changed so much over the years that he is confused on who he is himself and its driving him insane, but at the same time his life is happy now and he doesnt want it to end. You can see that when the mood changes when the he starts with "I never thought I'd smile again" which says with his family is the only thing keeping him from destruction.
This is a good song thats about how everyone misunderstands him and how all his past experiences are making him wish he wasnt alive anymore because no one understands the real him. He is also saying that he has changed so much over the years that he is confused on who he is himself and its driving him insane, but at the same time his life is happy now and he doesnt want it to end. You can see that when the mood changes when the he starts with "I never thought I'd smile again" which says with his family is the only thing keeping him from destruction.