If Only I Were a Butterfly

Sometimes I don't feel quite myself here
Sometimes I don't feel like it's my home
I would like to be a place where i'm free to play
A place I call my own

Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in a spider's web
And each thread is in itself a problem
So I try to break free, untangled
But i'm back to where I started from

Oh, if only I were a butterfly
I would fly so high
Right past the sky
And let go my fears
Let go of my despairs
I leave them to the air
Without a care

I walk alone in the dark
I wander through the night
I lie to look up high
To see the starry sky
It gives me strength to know
There's peace somewhere up there
So quiet, so undisturbed

I'm mystified
In my bed I lie awake
And I'm dreaming of that land
So far away from me
It makes me want to cry
pray for the day for i die