All I Have Left

Is this how it's going to be
These expectations laid in front of me
Holds me down, then sets me free
Is this how it's going to start
With this emptiness inside my heart
Over time pulls me apart
Don't break this thread
It's all I have of you
Don't break this thread
It's all that I hold onto
This is what's in my head
This is how I feel about you
This is what's in my head
And this is what I do
Is this how it's going to end
With so many letters left to send
It's not enough just to pretend
Is this all I have left
I'll never forget you
I sat with you as we looked out on the water
And I knew it was right
Don't break this thread
It's all I have of you
By this string I've been led
It's all that I hold onto
This is what's in my head
This is how I feel about you
This is what's in my head
And this is what I do
I still remember that morning when the sunlight hit your eyes
I made you feel guilty, but I never made you cry
I know you don't believe me when I tell you the truth
And I know you look right through me when I'm looking through to you
I'm never going to realize, I'm never going to understand
I'm always going to be a boy, I'm never going to be a man
I held you in my arms, and I swore I'd never leave
I just hope that you were listening and I hope that you believe me
I still remember that morning when at first I realized
That you're a thousand miles away
And I can't hold you when you cry
I know you don't believe me when I call out to you
And I know you don't look to me when the world looks to you
And I'm never gonna be alive
I'm never gonna understand
I'm always going to be a boy
I just wanna be a man
And I held you in my arms
iI swear to god I'll never leave
Just tell me that you're listening
Say that you believe me