Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
I've often wondered if there's ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for undividedness and sought stability
A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flaying in the wind
Like golden petals scattering
And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you
But I miss you dandelion
And even love you
I gravitated towards a patriarch so young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life within a maze of misery
A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity
And I miss you little sis
And Little brother
And I hope you realize
I'll always love you
(Always love you)
And although you're struggling
You will recover (we're gonna make it maybe)
And I miss you little sis and little brother
So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep
(Sleep) (Sleep) (Sleep)
And I missed a lot of life
But I'll recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you
I really loved you
(I guess I loved you)
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
I've always longed for undividedness and sought stability
A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flaying in the wind
Like golden petals scattering
And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you
But I miss you dandelion
And even love you
I gravitated towards a patriarch so young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life within a maze of misery
A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity
And I miss you little sis
And Little brother
And I hope you realize
I'll always love you
(Always love you)
And although you're struggling
You will recover (we're gonna make it maybe)
And I miss you little sis and little brother
So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep
(Sleep) (Sleep) (Sleep)
And I missed a lot of life
But I'll recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you
I really loved you
(I guess I loved you)
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
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"So many I considered Closest to me Turned on a dime and sold me Out dutifully Although that knife was chipping Away at me They turned their eyes away and Went home to sleep ... "
They probably don't even know they hurt me so bad. And then I also cried at the fact that it's been so long since I've been living a life deprived of so much things...I spent so many years doing little more than studying and getting caught up in the worries of becoming a lawyer, that I simply forget to live. And I've got so many regrets about the person I became later, and the people that I lost along the way, probably because of myself... "And I missed a lot of life But l'II recover Though I know you really like To see me suffer Still I wish that you and I'd Forgive each other 'Cause I miss you, Valentine And really loved you..."
Still, the only thing that drives me is the hope that one day I will recover...I will be the unspoiled person that I used to be...but who knows... And how badly I wish I could forgive them, especially the one that mistreated me the most...and how I would like him to see that I always loved him, probably more than anyone else...I need to forgive to move on, and I desperately need to feel at peace with myself for once.
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