Die Hard Crush

Funny how this guy on cable
Pulls a feather trigger, takes me back
The way he wanted buddy's other
Swallowed every feeling does serve as a reminder
I am living a lie
Saying I'm glad you two are fine
I should be living right
And getting rid of this die hard crush
Are you sleeping well?
Guess I missed my then or never
Those few days I spent with you sans him
Hours laying around on my last morning
All that I could do what with that line
Was reach for your hair and had I have dared
To cross it would you still be there
I know you never felt that way
I can't help it
I'm still reading into all that you do or say