Push Me Away (Lead Me On)

I’m sick of all this leading on
Going on
Actually believing what you had to say
Actually caring about what you say
You tell our friends you like me
But when you come to confront me
You push
Push me away
I’m sick of all this fake ass happiness
Hearing second hand what you said about me
It is just so fucking hard
So hard to tell you what I want
Wanting to tell you to leave me the fuck alone
Even though you don’t I do
I do care
I value what little we have
Even if all you do is push
Push me away
All you do is push
Push me
Push me away
Away from your perfect world
Away into my fucked up hell
No one can understand
Understand how I am
Understand how I feel
I’m sick of all your leading on
Pretending like you are my friend
But all I ever hear is you going behind my back again
Your lies do not stay unheard
They always get back to me
Whether it from ex’s, strangers or even best friends you see
Maybe you have been caught
Caught leading me on
Why do I go on
Go on like nothing happens
Maybe it’s for lack of drama
Or maybe it’s so you can become words on this page
Another page in my book
Spilling my emotion
Possibly I still want to be your friend
Or maybe I’m just leading you on
All you do is lie
Lie to me
Lie to me about everything
You lied to me about the perfect thing I needed
No one can understand
Understand how I am
Understand how I feel
The both of you are perfect for each other
A tramp who blames her problems on me
And a whore who goes behind my back but I see