This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Always living on the line of what you think is right or wrong,
there was a time when even i could not bear to be alone,
needing someone or something that is not mine to call my own,
to have and hold,
severing the only line of trust that you once thought you had,
now that i can see past you i can start to be a man,
death to me seems no mistake for i have yet to hate,
so can you see my pain, can you feel my pain, can you see my...
this, is my world,
and i see, what you don't,
forever, wanting more,
life breathes, from our soul,
looking into bloodshot eyes mesmerized they can't look back,
slowly turning in my mind is the visions of your death,
finding truth amongst my lies but not accepting now i grow,
and gain control,
opening to inner sanctums that you do not understand,
having no respect for life and taking it with my bare hands,
always searching with contempt for ways to rid my pounding head,
from this place,
This, is my world,
and i see, what you don't,
forever, wanting more,
life breathes, from our souls.
there was a time when even i could not bear to be alone,
needing someone or something that is not mine to call my own,
to have and hold,
severing the only line of trust that you once thought you had,
now that i can see past you i can start to be a man,
death to me seems no mistake for i have yet to hate,
so can you see my pain, can you feel my pain, can you see my...
this, is my world,
and i see, what you don't,
forever, wanting more,
life breathes, from our soul,
looking into bloodshot eyes mesmerized they can't look back,
slowly turning in my mind is the visions of your death,
finding truth amongst my lies but not accepting now i grow,
and gain control,
opening to inner sanctums that you do not understand,
having no respect for life and taking it with my bare hands,
always searching with contempt for ways to rid my pounding head,
from this place,
This, is my world,
and i see, what you don't,
forever, wanting more,
life breathes, from our souls.
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Samples:
"As I'm sitting there with a severed head in my hand, talking to it... or looking at it and I'm about to go crazy, literally Im' about to go completely.... blindly loose and just fall apart."
"He hit her with a hammer in her sleep, cut off her head and hands. Entangled her vocal chords in a garbage disposal, threw darts at her severed head."
"The testimony shows that the frontal area of the brain and the skull was fractured, jagged and exposed a portion of the brain."
"It is further ordered that on a set schedualed date that you be put to death, by a current of electricity."
"At the age of 24, he murdered his mother, then called police and confessed to having dismembered college co-eds for two years, aswell as cannabalizing, and raping their headless bodies"
pretty goddamn intense
Samples: "As I'm sitting there with a severed head in my hand, talking to it or looking at it and I'm about to go crazy, literally Im' about to go completely.... blindly loose and just fall apart."
"At the age of twenty four, he murdered his mother. Then called then police and confessed to having dismembered college co-eds for two years. As well as cannabalizing, and raping their headless corpses."
The samples in this song are taken from reports on a serial killer named Ed Kemper. All of the samples were taken from his trial & testimony. He killed his grandparents at a young age just to see what it was like and many young women later on. One of his last killings was his mother in which he used her head as a dartboard and put her vocal chords in the garbage disposal then called the police.
Another sample missed: "He cut off her head and hands, then put her vocal chords in the garbage disposal, and threw darts at her severed head."
"The testimony shows the the frontal area of the brain and skull was fractured, jagged, and froze (?) a portion of the brain. As further orders, on such scheduled date you shall be put to death, by current of electricity."
(I find this sample odd though because according to wikipedia he asked to be given the death penalty however he was given life in prison instead.)
More here: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ed_Kemper
go to crimelibrary.com it is a more reliable source
Wow, what a fucking heavy song. I love it!
The Berzerker, the insanist of the insane, and I love it to death, All hail The Berzerker.
That shit'll give ya nightmares.
love this song
Bezerker are just plainly fucken Brilliant oh and fucked up but i love it.......