Oh, I miss the kiss of treachery
The shameless kiss of vanity
The soft and the black and the velvety
Up tight against the side of me

And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
And run in thickening streams of greed
As bit by bit it starts the need
To just let go my party piece

I miss the kiss of treachery
The aching kiss before I feed
The stench of a love for a younger meat
And the sound that it makes when it cuts in deep
The holding up on bended knees
The addiction of duplicities
As bit by bit, it starts the need
To just let go of my party piece

But I never said I would stay to the end
So I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
Screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
Screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When both of us knew how the ending would be

So it's all come back 'round to breaking apart again
Breaking apart like I'm made up of glass again
Making it up behind my back again
Holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
Holding it up behind my head again
Cut in the deep to the heart of the bone again
'Round and 'round and 'round and it's coming apart again
Over and over and over

And now that I know that I'm breaking to pieces
I'll pull out my heart and I'll feed it to anyone
I'm crying for sympathy, crocodiles cry
For the love of the crowd
And the three cheers from everyone
Dropping through sky
Through the glass of the roof
Through the roof of your mouth
Through the mouth of your eye
Through the eye of the needle
It's easier for me to get closer to Heaven
Than ever feel whole again

But I never said I would stay to the end
I knew I would leave you with babies and everything
Screaming like this in the whole of sincerity
Screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery
And stains on the carpet and stains on the memory of
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When we both of us knew how the end always is
How the end always is

How the end always is
How the end always is
How the end always is
How the end always is
Always
Always


Lyrics submitted by oofus, edited by clouds1

Disintegration Lyrics as written by Laurence Andrew Tolhurst Boris Williams

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  • +8
    My Opinion

    I love this song, too and always subscribed to the idea that it's about a breakup BUT tonight I listened and wondered if it's actually not about a romantic breakup but rather about the trappings of fame and his role as a pop idol (he was a BIG star in the UK at least, at this time) and how disgusting some of it is to him...

    Read the lyrics again and try putting them in these terms, the backstabbing references and the references to crowds cheering...references to addiction and duplicity ...very possibly talking about the trappings of pop stardom and dealing with industry types.

    This song works on the level of a troubled pop star who wants to get out, who is sick of the carousel of band members and the pressure ...he doesn't necessarily want to keep doing it over and over and never made that promise to begin with.

    If anyone is remotely interested I can go through line by line and explain why I think this is about his career and not a breakup with a girlfriend.

    Another example would be:

    "through the eye Of the needle it's easier for me to get closer to Heaven than ever feel whole again"

    A (biblical) reference to being rich and how empty he feels now that he's achieved that material goal.

    Had to share...Let me know what you think.

    diamondbolloxon December 14, 2013   Link

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