This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It started when we were little kids
Free spirits, but already tormented by our own hands
Given to us by our parents
We got together and wrote on desks
And slept in laundry rooms near snowy mountains
And slipped through whatever cracks we could find
Minds altered, we didn't falter
In portraying hysterical and tragic characters
In a smog filled universe
We loved the dirty city
And the journeys away from it
We had not yet been or seen our friends, selves
Chase tails 'round and 'round in downward spirals
Leaving trail of irretrievable, vital life juice behind
Still, the brothers, blood comrades
Partner, family, cous' was impenetrable
And we lived inside it, laughing with no clothes
And everything experimental 'til death was upon us
In our face, mortality
And lots of things seemed futile then
But love and music can save us
And did, while the giant grey monster grew
More poisoned and volatile around us
Jaws clamping down and spewing ugly shit around
Nothing is the same
So we keep moving
We keep moving
Oh, shit
Oh, shit
Went off and got some haircuts
Looking wild and got all drugged up
Hopped a train into the night
Got a ride with a transvestite
Two boys in San Francisco
Two boys in San Francisco
Blasted off in a BART bathroom
Those coppers woke us up
Motherfuckers woke us up
Two young brothers on a hovercraft (hell yeah, yeah)
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Telepathic love and belly laughs
Storm the stage of Universal
Slim shine talk boy, so subversal
Papa's proud and so he sent us
Pounding hearts full and relentless
Two boys in London, England
Two boys in London, England
Climbing out of hostel windows
Wearing gear so out but in though
Come on kid and do the no, no
Two young brothers on a hovercraft (yeah)
Telepathic love and belly laughs (oh yeah)
Oh, shit
Oh, shit
We went to Fairfax High School
Jumped off buildings into their pools
We'd sit down and grease at Canters
Run like hell they can't catch us
Two boys in L.A. Proper
Two boys in L.A. Proper
Stealing anything that we could
Got to sneak into the Starwood
Got to peak into the deep good
I remember
Ten years ago in Hollywood
We did some good
And we did some real bad stuff
But the Butthole Surfers said
It's better to regret something you did
Than something you didn't do
Yeah, we were young
And we were looking
Looking
Looking for that deep kick
Yeah, seen them come, seen them go
(And I feel I'm getting close to you)
Free spirits, but already tormented by our own hands
Given to us by our parents
We got together and wrote on desks
And slept in laundry rooms near snowy mountains
And slipped through whatever cracks we could find
Minds altered, we didn't falter
In portraying hysterical and tragic characters
In a smog filled universe
We loved the dirty city
And the journeys away from it
We had not yet been or seen our friends, selves
Chase tails 'round and 'round in downward spirals
Leaving trail of irretrievable, vital life juice behind
Still, the brothers, blood comrades
Partner, family, cous' was impenetrable
And we lived inside it, laughing with no clothes
And everything experimental 'til death was upon us
In our face, mortality
And lots of things seemed futile then
But love and music can save us
And did, while the giant grey monster grew
More poisoned and volatile around us
Jaws clamping down and spewing ugly shit around
Nothing is the same
So we keep moving
We keep moving
Oh, shit
Oh, shit
Went off and got some haircuts
Looking wild and got all drugged up
Hopped a train into the night
Got a ride with a transvestite
Two boys in San Francisco
Two boys in San Francisco
Blasted off in a BART bathroom
Those coppers woke us up
Motherfuckers woke us up
Two young brothers on a hovercraft (hell yeah, yeah)
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Telepathic love and belly laughs
Storm the stage of Universal
Slim shine talk boy, so subversal
Papa's proud and so he sent us
Pounding hearts full and relentless
Two boys in London, England
Two boys in London, England
Climbing out of hostel windows
Wearing gear so out but in though
Come on kid and do the no, no
Two young brothers on a hovercraft (yeah)
Telepathic love and belly laughs (oh yeah)
Oh, shit
Oh, shit
We went to Fairfax High School
Jumped off buildings into their pools
We'd sit down and grease at Canters
Run like hell they can't catch us
Two boys in L.A. Proper
Two boys in L.A. Proper
Stealing anything that we could
Got to sneak into the Starwood
Got to peak into the deep good
I remember
Ten years ago in Hollywood
We did some good
And we did some real bad stuff
But the Butthole Surfers said
It's better to regret something you did
Than something you didn't do
Yeah, we were young
And we were looking
Looking
Looking for that deep kick
Yeah, seen them come, seen them go
(And I feel I'm getting close to you)
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