In your white lace and your wedding bells
You look the picture of contented new wealth
But from the onlooking fool who believed your lies
I wish this grave would open up and swallow me alive
For the bitterest pill is hard to swallow
The love I gave hangs in sad-colored, mocking shadows, yeah

When the wheel of fortune broke, you fell to me
Out of grey skies to change my misery
The vacant spot, your beating heart took its place
Now I watch smoke leave my lips and fill an empty room

For the bitterest pill is hard to swallow
The love I gave hangs in sad-colored, mocking shadows

The bitterest pill is mine to take
If I took if for a hundred years, I couldn't feel any more hate
The bitterest pill is mine to take
If I took if for a hundred years, I couldn't feel any more hate

Now autumn's breeze blows summer's leaves through my life
Twisted and broken-down, no days with sunlight
The dying spark, you left your mark on me
The promise of your kiss, but with someone else

For the bitterest pill is mine to swallow
The love I gave hangs in sad-colored, mocking shadows
The bitterest pill is mine to take
If I took if for a hundred years, I couldn't feel anymore ill
The bitterest pill is mine to take
If I took if for a hundred years, I couldn't feel any more hate
The bitterest pill is mine to take
If I took if for a hundred years, I couldn't feel any more hate
The bitterest pill is mine to take
If I took if for a hundred years, I couldn't feel any more hate


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The Bitterest Pill (I Ever Had to Swallow) Lyrics as written by PAUL JOHN WELLER

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    smithersjones, exactly. this was supposed to be a joke to mock other big selling artists. he basically proved that he could be that if he wanted to... and i must say the melody is really kind of beautiful. just because he wrote it as a joke doesn't mean he didnt try to make it sound good... im having trouble explaining my thoughts, but im sure you probably get what i mean. i personally think this song is great. not too jam-like, but none the less, a great tune. :]

    chelseabearcoutureon February 26, 2009   Link
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    Great, great track from one of my favourite bands. The late 70s/early 80s was such a good time for music. That's not even my era, I'm 19! Those 'sad coloured mocking shadows' paint such a haunting picture to show the narrators depressed state of mind. Great stuff!

    butterflykiss84on April 12, 2004   Link
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    Thsi song was written as a joke to prove that the sort of songs being written by ABC, Duran Duran etc were a piece of cake to write. Which is what Weller did. And it got to No.2 in the UK chart. If it had gotten to No.1, it would've been the longest song title to get to No.1 ever.

    jackd36on February 16, 2005   Link
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    I've also heard that these lyrics were deliberately over the top.

    Boss Manon June 30, 2005   Link
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    the song is a joke, I need the sick bucket, the jam with strings the writing was on the wall the moment this was released.

    sivillaon December 21, 2005   Link
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    sivilla... what?

    mitten_kittenon February 18, 2006   Link
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    But it's still a great song - regardless of its deliberate over the top-ness?

    butterflykiss84on April 09, 2006   Link
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    butterflykiss84, I am 20 and I agree that this is a great song regardless of its over the topness!!!! The Jam are one of my favourite bands, and I don't care if some people hate Paul Weller for things he is done in the past because no one can deny he is a lyrical genius and completely brilliant at what he does!! :-)

    Hannhrarianon February 27, 2007   Link
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    just dont like the song I was a massive fan of the jam until weller decided enough was enough and decided to replace power chords with power strings.

    sivillaon May 07, 2007   Link
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    He always said this was supposed to be ironic, especially lines like "Now autumn's breeze blows summer's leaves through my life" but he said that the press still didn't get it and saw it as part of Weller's introspective phase!

    mr smithon September 25, 2008   Link

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