So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Wheels turn crush me,
I am the machine
Heaven helps those
Who forget to dream
I see a spark,
Great is what we are
Eyes toward my reward,
Compensated for
I am no-one,
I am nothing.
Mold me, make me
Into something you find worth in,
Deem special
I am no-one
I am nothing.
And I'm sure I'll remember
The love this brings me
By the glass cuts on my feet
Fate damns, guides me
Into life's fear and shame
Bully into submission,
It's the only thing that keeps me sane
I will never break free
I don't want to break free
Comfort in my tortures,
There must be a reward
I am no-one,
I am nothing.
Mold me, make me
Into something you find worth in,
Deem special
I am no-one,
I am nothing.
And I'm sure I'll remember
The love this brings me
By the glass cuts on my feet
I sold myself out to you
You told me that you were truth
Use me as your new disease
I just need to please
I live, die, kill just for you
My self-esteem I remove
Cut me and bleed me dry
I can serve just let me try
I am no one.
I am nothing.
God, please help me.
Mold me into what you want me to be
I can't stand this,
I feel removed
I feel remorse
For my understanding
Take me,
Change me
Into something...
I am the machine
Heaven helps those
Who forget to dream
I see a spark,
Great is what we are
Eyes toward my reward,
Compensated for
I am no-one,
I am nothing.
Mold me, make me
Into something you find worth in,
Deem special
I am no-one
I am nothing.
And I'm sure I'll remember
The love this brings me
By the glass cuts on my feet
Fate damns, guides me
Into life's fear and shame
Bully into submission,
It's the only thing that keeps me sane
I will never break free
I don't want to break free
Comfort in my tortures,
There must be a reward
I am no-one,
I am nothing.
Mold me, make me
Into something you find worth in,
Deem special
I am no-one,
I am nothing.
And I'm sure I'll remember
The love this brings me
By the glass cuts on my feet
I sold myself out to you
You told me that you were truth
Use me as your new disease
I just need to please
I live, die, kill just for you
My self-esteem I remove
Cut me and bleed me dry
I can serve just let me try
I am no one.
I am nothing.
God, please help me.
Mold me into what you want me to be
I can't stand this,
I feel removed
I feel remorse
For my understanding
Take me,
Change me
Into something...
Lyrics submitted by Caverna[RR]
Vehicle Lyrics as written by Darrell Hyde Charles W. Istvan
Lyrics © Reservoir Media Management, Inc.
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