I'm losing my love of adventure.
I'm losing all respect for me and myself tonight.
I wonder what happens if I get to
The end of this tunnel and there isn't a light.

I've worn down the treads on most of my tires.
I've worn down through the elbows and the knees of my clothing
And I'm striding down
The gravel drive-way of desire,

Trying not to wake up my sleeping self-loathing.
Do you ever have that dream,
When you open your mouth and you try to scream,
But you can't make a sound?

That's every day's starting now.
That's every day's starting now.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.

Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimisn tonight.
It's a stiff competition to see who can stay up later:
The stars or the street lights.

All they really want is to be alone with the darkness
No more "Wish I may" no more "Wish I might".
It takes a stiff upper lip just to hold up my face
I gotta suck it up and savor the taste of my own behavior.

I am spinning with longing
Faster than a roulette wheel
This is not who I meant to be,
This is not how I meant to feel

Have you ever had that dream,
Where you open your mouth and you try to scream,
But you can't make a sound?
That's every day's starting now.

That's every day's starting now.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.

You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
I don't think I am strong enough
To do this much longer.
God I wish I was stronger.

This song could never long enough
To express every longing.
God I wish it was longer.
I don't think I am strong enough

I don't
I don't
Think I can
I don't think I

I wish I
I


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    this is the song i listen to when it feels like all is lost. to all intents and puroses, this song should push most people over the edge. there's nothing kind or uplifting about it. but i think there is something to be said for hearing your dispair and hopelessness described so beautifully. it always seems to remind me that its natural to feel like that sometimes. just enjoy it for a few days and ride it out. and i don't think you can beat a lyric as perfect as this:

    it takes a stiff upper lip just to hold up my face i've got to suck it up and savour the taste of my own behavior

    kylebankon July 22, 2006   Link
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    P.S it makes it ten times better than Freakshow is right after this song too. haha complete opposite emotions, and of course, ani is able to capture both ends of the spectrum and put them right next to each other.

    mrsupers7aron February 06, 2010   Link
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    kylebank i feel you described it perfectly. For me this is one of anis best songs, but it is intense pain- nothing forgiving nor soft, just pure selfhate, selfloathing and pain. It doesnt gloss over anything, this song hurts almost physically for me.

    This is the song for when things couldn't possibly hurt any more than they do. The moments where you feel you cant take it anymore, everything is going to hell and that nothing will ever be well again. Where i feel like "welcome to" is utterly sad in an apathetic, given up way, this song is sad with momentum, the kind of sad that rips you apart. Its sad and angry and afraid all at the same time, overwhelming you. This is being devostated.

    vivianmarion June 10, 2011   Link
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    this song is perfect in describing how i feel most of the time..pessimist at heart..

    x_soulrebel_xon February 22, 2006   Link
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    "losing my love of adventure losing all respect for me and myself tonight i wonder what happens if i get to the end of this tunnel and there isn't a light"

    Oh my god. Ani takes the words right out of my mouth and makes them into poetry.

    I am going to marry her, and make her my wifey. :D

    This song means so much to me. its so truly realistic. Its like how things really are... just trying to make it

    LittleFolkieGurlon February 21, 2008   Link
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    Listening to it right now. This song has such a great sound that is so appropriate for the lyrics-an excellent portrayal of reaching the end of the rope

    River Wolfon April 13, 2008   Link
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    yeah. you all summed it up. it's about reaching the end of tolerance and joy. completely pessimistic.
    "trying not to wake up my sleeping self loathing" "i'm staring down the gravel driveway of desire" beautiful lines. do you ever feel that way? where you're on the verge of being completely depressed, but you're doing things carefully so you don't fall into the depression. Ani has such beautiful words..

    mrsupers7aron February 06, 2010   Link

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