My little story's
Growing way too long
I've had to suffer
Enough to write this song
And if I get the chance
I'll tell you how it feels
Cause in this sick old head
The pain is way to real
So I fall down
I don't know
If I can make it up this time

I know I want to but it gets
Harder every time
And if it's easier
To give up everything
I'd give it all to you
To relieve half this pain

Cause it's been hard
Yeah it's been hard

I sit there at the bar
I wonder what I've done
Should I just fuck it all

Or should I
Go back home
Cause if I take that drink
I might as well just die
And if I kill myself
I'd be giving up my try


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    i cannot believe no one has commented on this song...okay everybody says that. but i still can't believe it. This maybe goldfinger's best, probably my favorite, and definitely the most underrated. the song is appropriately titled. he is talking about all the shit in his life and everything that he's fucked up with, not intentionally though. he doesn't know if he can recover from everything and what he should do if he can. he's also wondering if he should take the easy way out throw away his life all his problems or if he should continue. everything is in disorder. its a really honest and true song and it kicks ass. best song off goldfinger's best album.

    rbf737on May 10, 2003   Link
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    Wow, is that all? The song seems longer listening to it.

    Man, the part where he says "Cause if I take that drink, I might as well just die... And if I kill myself, I'd be giving up my try" is chilling because he dosen't have a good reason not to kill himself...

    Either that or I'm reading too much into weak lyrics

    atar_ludicrumon July 03, 2003   Link
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    I do agree with the other 2 guys before me !!! I'm very surprised there are just two comments for this song, I do believe this is one of Goldfinger's greatest songs. I love the way they hit hard with the music, but speak clear and deep at same time. I love this song.

    Sometimes we all feel the same way, and I think its easier to carry on if we know there's someone who feels the same way. and then we forget and sing !

    ciccon July 29, 2005   Link
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    It's funny, lyrically, when you consider that this song follows "Question" on Hangups.

    realitysoldieron December 05, 2009   Link

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