I said I'm crazy one more time
Picked up the phone and wondered why
So many years of hidden dreams
Pushed down too far to ever win

Locked doors
And hidden ghosts
Denied myself with every joke
This was not me
This could never be me

Remembering so many times
So many lies so many lies
Ran so fast the years passed blind
So much time lost killing five

Locked doors
And hidden ghosts
Denied myself with every joke
This is not me
This could never be me

Whatever poison you may drink
Another list of "no's" persist
Antique and out of reach
I lose my life and take it back
Crashed this side of happiness
Hit the floor or hit and miss
Without the strength to follow through
Walked right past this life in you

Just one more kiss
Just one more chance
Just one more life
Of circumstance
Just one more call
Taking a chance
On circumstance


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Across Five Years Lyrics as written by Joshua Latshaw Charles W. Istvan

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    "this was not me this could never be me" this could definately link to the gay idea, before my friend came out... i remember him confinding in me and saying "i can't be gay! I've kissed girls!" he wasn't willing to accept it...

    Princess |\/.\/|on April 28, 2003   Link

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