What I Deserve

Why am I reaching so hard when it’s standing so close?
Would I take it too far, becoming a ghost?
I missed the signs that were right here
Continued walking on my own
I’m laying down for the end yeah
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you, if I see you on the other side
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you, if I see you on the other side
When I feel alone or when I feel at fault
It’s the only way I know
And when I feel anything at all
It’s the only thing I know
Then I’ll carry this hurt
‘Cause it’s what I deserve
So I won’t show
That I’ll never be whole
So why am I not feeling lost
When I’m falling apart?
And I don’t care what’s the cost
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you, if I see you on the other side
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you, if I see you on the other side
When I feel alone, or when I feel at fault
It’s the only way I know
And when I feel anything at all
It’s the only thing I know
Then I’ll carry this hurt
‘Cause it’s what I deserve
So I won’t show
That I’ll never be whole
I can’t open the door
It’s safer being alone
I can’t open the door
It’s safer being alone
'Cause that’s all I’ve ever known
(If I see you, if I see you
If I see you on the other side
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you on the other side)
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you on the other side
If I see you, if I see you
If I see you on the other side
(on the other side)
Then I’ll carry this hurt
‘Cause it’s what I deserve
So I won’t show
That I’ll never be whole
(When I feel alone or when I feel at fault)
That I’ll never be whole
(Or when I feel anything at all)
That I’ll never be whole