Chaos

Mmm, mmm
When the world gets quiet and everybody's dreaming
I stay up late so I can finally hear myself think
When I'm far from home, I, I call up God on the telephone
I say
Hey there girl, I don't know what I'm doing
Think I made a mess of my life,
My soul is twisted up in ruins
I, feel so alone and the silence feels like a dial tone
Some days I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Drivin' round the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes I'm a rollercoaster ride
I ride around the bend and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos, the chaos
I'm over all the stories, the bullshit I enabled
I thought my life would look a little bit more stable
There's an earthquake in my mind
While the wildfire's burn outside
Some days I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Drivin' round the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes I'm a rollercoaster ride
I ride around the bend and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos, the chaos,
The chaos, oh, the chaos
I don't know what's become of me
I miss the Jersey girl I used to be
Some days I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Drivin' round the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes I'm a rollercoaster ride
I ride around the bend and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos, the chaos
The chaos, oh, the chaos
I close my eyes,
I see my dreams are changing
I'm okay with it, I'm alright