drunk text

Fifth of November
When I walked you home
That's when I nearly said it
But then said "Forget it" and froze
Do you remember?
You probably don't
'Cause the sparks in the sky
Took a hold of your eyes while we spoke
Yesterday, drank too much
And stayed up too late
Started to write what I wanna say
Deleted the message
But I still remember, it said
I wish I was who you drunk texted, at midnight
Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til 3
And you can't fall asleep, waiting for me to reply
I wish I was more than just someone you walked by
Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open
Instead of just hoping you feel what I feel inside
April the 7th
And nothing has changed
It's hard to get by
When you're still on my mind every day
Sometimes I question
If you feel the same
Do we make stupid jokes
Try'na hide that we're both too afraid to say
I wish I was who you drunk texted, at midnight
Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til 3
And you can't fall asleep, waiting for me to reply
I wish I was more than just someone you walked by
Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open
Instead of just hoping you feel what I feel inside
Oh, and here we go again
Destroying myself to keep a friend
Hiding away 'cause I was afraid you'd say no
I wonder if I cross your mind
Half as much as you do mine
If I tell you the truth, what will I lose?
I don't know
I wish I sent you that drunk text at midnight
I was just scared it would ruin our friendship
But I really meant it
I wonder how you would reply