Let Myself Down

Old man down on the ground again
Pick him up and wish him well
Wise man speaks of aliens
With road maps that look like fingerprints
Dipped in glue, started white
Then cleared the game
Shin splints and broken toes
Standing up proud you'd never know
The pain is great, a toothless grin
Old man digs a grave again
I found I couldn't handle it, I can't be afraid
I found I couldn't handle it, I don't know what else to say
I let myself down, please don't hate me
I never meant to do you any harm, please believe me
Choking on an old cornflake
And a water dish is the only plate
I have to use or need to see
A yellow pill is a good friend
Even if it's not for long
It's been there and I've been done
I just can't remember if it was fun for you
Because it wasn't fun for me
I found I couldn't handle it, I can't be afraid
I found I couldn't handle it, I don't know what else to say
I let myself down, please don't hate me
I never meant to do you any harm, please believe me
I couldn't handle it
I couldn't handle it
I'm stuck in this box
This skin is my cell
Thses bones are the bars
My heart is so hard
I've been cold for so long
It didn't used to be that way
How did it get that way?
How did it get that...
I let myself down, please don't hate me
I never meant to do you any harm, please believe me
I let myself down, please forgive me
I might figure it out someday
Someday