Fears

Aint got no time for your cynical energy
Been the biggest motivation to the people who needed me
I'm not letting my infuriated thoughts defeat me. F**k that
Can someone tell me how am i rational with the irrational fears?
Why do i always shed a tear?
I got phobias that hit me like a storm moving gears
And my minds in a battle every shadow brings the tear and I'm steady on the surface but my hearts in a crash
Fighting demons in the dark no matter how i flash
My fears got me tangled in an endless whirlpool
I'm chasing dreams but they always seem cruel
Life goes with the flow
If you are not flowing correctly
Then you are gonna sink
It's that easy and it's that hard
Depends how you do it
I'm so sorry mamma that i couldn't make you proud
Been such a disappointment in your house
Always wasting your amount
Never making you none
I'm a grown man acting like a baby
Maybe i should see a psychologist
So i can hopefully stop being so optimistic
I got fears since childhood that's fucking me up
Living a life that seems so fu**ing tough im rough on myself
Everybody put me down
I got my own struggles
I got my fears
I gotta beat em
I gotta do it myself
Ay togo shonai amr dukkher Kotha
Ami purush hoisi nari pai nai
Rapper hoisi beat pai nai
Jibon chole jiboner gotite
Kintu ami jeno poita achi guhar amole
Ekhon ami bash kori manushik bishonnotai
Alo ami dekhi aj kuashai
Jibon amr urai gese dhoashai
Ami janina to eida kon obhisap
Jodi hoy obhisap taile ei obhisap re ami dei obhisap
I'm just waiting for a miracle
Putting my life on the line cause there is really no other hope
If that don't happen then imma get wasted for sure